Today our electricity was cut off. Again. And it didnt get turned back on until just now (about 5:30pm). It's so disheartening to go through this all the time, it feels as though no matter what I do, no matter how much I work and work and put everything I have into making life better, it just circles back around to shit, to square one. It's ( Read more... )

>'A government big enough to give you
> everything you want, is big enough to take away everything
> you have.' - Thomas Jefferson

It's all one big conspiracy, man. One gigantic fuckin conspiracy.

You catch wild pigs by finding a suitable place in the
 woods and putting corn on the ground. The pigs find it and
 begin to come everyday to eat ( Read more... )

The flickering buzz of harsh fluorescent lights at the gas station couldnt do it, nor the pregnant attendee who didnt put my $20 through to the pump, making sure I knew how frustrated she was for making her do her job. Only making $45 at work tonight didnt have any effect, or the fact that the sky remained gray until night set in--a constant, slow ( Read more... )

Tonight was the first night in 2 months that LeeAnn and I hung out. We went to Coco, and my brothers present girlfriend, Lisa, showed up. I felt like I was 30, sitting among a group of 15 year olds. The girl is 19 (only 3 years younger than me), but the way she talks....the way she raises her voice at the end of almost every sentence, the words " ( Read more... )

I need to create my own language, because these english words aren't good enough.

Wish you were here to share the laughs with me.....

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Friday night after work I came home and told Aaron I didnt want to do this with him anymore and he needed to find a place to stay.

This vicious cycle keeps repeating itself. His parents came to town last weekend, expecting to swing through nashville and pick us up drive to louisiana to visit his grand parents. I wasnt aware of this but about 2 weeks ( Read more... )

This just isnt fair. None of it. I can feel the the blankets inching their way back up to my neck.

This cant be the end. Surely. I mean, it cant happen like this. No, there is something glorious in store. And its really fucking scary. Im doing just fine without food, the sleep keeps me occupied.

"....for some strange reason my house is very cold. Nothing seems like it fits right and tonight, when I go to bed, the room will be closing in on me. My bed doesn't smell right anymore. I won't be able to dream because I'm awake. I want to dream because I can be happy there, but I won't allow myself to be happy. When I finally do sleep, it will be ( Read more... )