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Friday night after work I came home and told Aaron I didnt want to do this with him anymore and he needed to find a place to stay.
This vicious cycle keeps repeating itself. His parents came to town last weekend, expecting to swing through nashville and pick us up drive to louisiana to visit his grand parents. I wasnt aware of this but about 2 weeks before hand his mother talked to him and basically told him if he wasnt working she didnt feel right about him going. He didnt do anything about it, and seemed fine with just Olive and me going without him. Well Im not one to come between family and create more issues so I declined. Which really sucked because Ive been working my ass off and really needed a vacation. I picked up shifts. And this week we are right back at square one.
Saturday he seemed fine, as though I didnt have any conversation whatsoever with him the night before. I hate getting into an argument right before I have to go to work (it can ruin the whole night) so I didnt bring it up. Today I told him I meant everything I said the other night, I still want him to find a place to stay.
He said he can't do that. He doesnt have his own car and isnt going to make the situation worse for himself. That sentence became an argument. Basically he refuses to leave. He said he isnt going to burden one of his friends, and he's going to look for a new job starting tomorrow. After he gets that situated, I can make whatever decision I want to. I became angry. I told him I dont want to go through this process AGAIN. I told him "I want out! Im not going through this again, I will not let someone else make me feel like a fool, like an idiot, for the millionth time." He seems accepting of this. He said its fair I feel this way, that he understands. Although I told him not to because I dont want to be stuck here without a car, he went to a friends house, and will be back tonight. He said he could crash there and be back in the morning if I wanted, I didnt say anything. Its MY CAR!!!!
Im done. Completely done. It's been 2 years. And nothing's changed. I dont think anything ever will.
Im going on food stamps this week. I wanted to a few weeks ago, but it frustrated him and for that reason I didnt do it. He said if we seperate then he's going to work nights as well as days (our arrangement was he would work days and me nights so one of us could be with olive), and I would have to work out sitters for olive. I didnt think that was fair. It basically came across as though Olive would be completely my responsibility. Ive heard there's government assisted day care. Ugh, that makes me cringe. I dont know what I would do about that. I guess Ill cross that bridge when I come to it.
This vicious cycle keeps repeating itself. His parents came to town last weekend, expecting to swing through nashville and pick us up drive to louisiana to visit his grand parents. I wasnt aware of this but about 2 weeks before hand his mother talked to him and basically told him if he wasnt working she didnt feel right about him going. He didnt do anything about it, and seemed fine with just Olive and me going without him. Well Im not one to come between family and create more issues so I declined. Which really sucked because Ive been working my ass off and really needed a vacation. I picked up shifts. And this week we are right back at square one.
Saturday he seemed fine, as though I didnt have any conversation whatsoever with him the night before. I hate getting into an argument right before I have to go to work (it can ruin the whole night) so I didnt bring it up. Today I told him I meant everything I said the other night, I still want him to find a place to stay.
He said he can't do that. He doesnt have his own car and isnt going to make the situation worse for himself. That sentence became an argument. Basically he refuses to leave. He said he isnt going to burden one of his friends, and he's going to look for a new job starting tomorrow. After he gets that situated, I can make whatever decision I want to. I became angry. I told him I dont want to go through this process AGAIN. I told him "I want out! Im not going through this again, I will not let someone else make me feel like a fool, like an idiot, for the millionth time." He seems accepting of this. He said its fair I feel this way, that he understands. Although I told him not to because I dont want to be stuck here without a car, he went to a friends house, and will be back tonight. He said he could crash there and be back in the morning if I wanted, I didnt say anything. Its MY CAR!!!!
Im done. Completely done. It's been 2 years. And nothing's changed. I dont think anything ever will.
Im going on food stamps this week. I wanted to a few weeks ago, but it frustrated him and for that reason I didnt do it. He said if we seperate then he's going to work nights as well as days (our arrangement was he would work days and me nights so one of us could be with olive), and I would have to work out sitters for olive. I didnt think that was fair. It basically came across as though Olive would be completely my responsibility. Ive heard there's government assisted day care. Ugh, that makes me cringe. I dont know what I would do about that. I guess Ill cross that bridge when I come to it.