This is my first entry in a loong time ( Read more... )

I'm probably not gonna' update this. No point to it.

When you know your friends really care about you, I dunno'... You just feel so much better than you did. I understand why my friends like being around me so much. I really care. But, for a while, I thought it was kind of one sided. That it was only me who cared for them. I didn't mind... Too much, any way. But, lately it's all been falling apart. ( Read more... )

The baptism didn't happen. Long story. Another long story, my older brother ran away. Selfish son of a bitch.

That's pretty much it.

Only about 10 hours til my baptism. I dunno. I feel so grimy. So sinful. A bad person. Is it right for me to be baptised today? Will I be called? Will God be in my heart when I go through with it? Will I be a different person? Will I be able to carry out the lifestyle I promised to live ( Read more... )

I finally have my computer. I hate the keyboard and it's a flatscreen. Besides that, tho', it has a CD burner, which kicks bum.

Stress. That's all. Pure stress. Pure worry. Everybody's problems. on my shoulders. I don't mind being an emotional crutch. I DO mind not having one. It's just... I don't know. And I feel so selfish when I get bothered by not having a crutch. I don't know. I'M TOO YOUNG FOR THIS! A friend who attempted suicide and her boyfriend broke up with her, a ( Read more... )

Confusion of the adolescent mind isn't a good thing. Especially when you think so little of yourself like me... I have some people saying I'm a great guy, but then old friends seriously avoiding me throws it in the dirt. I don't know anymore. I want to cry. But so many people look up to me as a big brother, so I can't ( Read more... )

Man. Mr. Brown is one of the coolest teachers ever. He calls himself the Liberal Yankee on the Team, which is basically this group of young, male teachers, who are also AWESOME. It's cool. He had me bring in my Hendrix during testing. Brown, Combass, and Murphey. I get along awesome with them. It's cool when you're friends with teachers. But, sadly ( Read more... )

Stupid computer. Stupid chicken. STUPID ( Read more... )