"We Are The Ones You Wanna' Choose, Always Wanna' Play But You Never Wanna' Lose"-System of a Down
Only about 10 hours til my baptism. I dunno. I feel so grimy. So sinful. A bad person. Is it right for me to be baptised today? Will I be called? Will God be in my heart when I go through with it? Will I be a different person? Will I be able to carry out the lifestyle I promised to live?
So much can happen in two months. Now, it all comes down to this. I truly believe in something. For once in my life, what should seem to be the least believable, I believe in. I have faith in Jesus Christ as my savior, but not in myself. What about my self loathing? Will it go away or hit me even harder? Will people still come to me with their problems? Will more people come to me?
Into the darkness I go to find the lamp
So much can happen in two months. Now, it all comes down to this. I truly believe in something. For once in my life, what should seem to be the least believable, I believe in. I have faith in Jesus Christ as my savior, but not in myself. What about my self loathing? Will it go away or hit me even harder? Will people still come to me with their problems? Will more people come to me?
Into the darkness I go to find the lamp