Stupid girl.

That's what you get for telling someone your deepest darkest secrets before actually meeting them. And allowing yourself to get attached. Stupid, stupid, STUPID girl.

Well I haven't written anything on here for years. I need a place to write where everyone I know won't see. Since none of my friends ever write anything on here anymore, here it is:

This song is me.

"I Am"

I am timid and
I am oversensitive
I am a lioness
I am tired and defensive
You take me in your arms
And I fall into you
I have insecurities
You show me I ( Read more... )

 My surgery went really really well and I'm really glad.Everyone at the hospital was so nice, and I didn't even need pain medication ( Read more... )

I finally had the courage to read some of my old LJ entries. Things have changed and I am glad, although I do miss some of the moments and people. I guess thats what makes it special. the fact that it ends.

I'm happy and I am so glad. This year has been great, and I am so blessed to have such amazing people in my life. I am very surprised that I ( Read more... )

I hate this feeling of being overwhelmed with everything and feeling like a total failure... how can you be so happy and yet be hurting so much and be so numb all at the same time ( Read more... )

 IT just feels SOOOOOOOOO GOOD.

yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes it wasn't just a one day thing. I finally feel like a singer again thank Goodness.

maybe I should get the flu more often...not

I'm going to be ok, I just have to keep pushing through it like my life depends on it...because it does. At least I know I'm not the only one who's exhausted. They're kicking our asses but it is sooooo worth it ( Read more... )

I was shaking the whole time, trying to hold back my tears, my anger. I was caught completely offguard, and he was just talking at me while I stared at him blankly taking his criticism. I was completely unable to say anything. I was almost in shck as to how completely ridiculous the whole situation was. And she sat there next to me. not saying a ( Read more... )

Its strange to thik about how much time has passed since graduation and how much things and people have changed, its nice to know I can always go back to it in my memories and in my dreams like the one I had a couple nights ago, a safe place where we felt somewhat in control and like we had the rest of our lives i n front of us. Its nice to know ( Read more... )

 Does it mean anything that i can't even write him an e-mail longer than two sentences?...seriously. We have such a strange relationship and I feel like he gave up on it and im the only one trying and I can't even give him news of me. I have nothing to say, maybe because Im not used to being the one running the conversation. I mean if you really ( Read more... )