Well, I am home on my lunch... Busy today. I'm so irrated with Betsy, She will sit there and let patients wait 15 minutes... while she does nothing. We had a ton of patients and one of them brought their daughter in. She is about a year and they needed help with someone to watch her, I volunteered, I love children and i seem to do well with ( Read more... )

I just heard from Dad, One of my friends from school, died. Jen was always really thin, but i never thought anything of it. I guess i didn't have the mind set of eating disorders then. He said that the obituary actually says, that she died from complication from anorexia. I remember during finals once she said that she was going to the gym three ( Read more... )

My head hurts, I just got done with work, for the first time in years, I actually want my period. My good I am so bloated, and it hurts down there ( Read more... )

Maybe it's me remembering old friends that has me feeling so depressed ( Read more... )

I hate medicare! I thought that today would be light, fat chance, I mean I love the patients, I much rather work with them. But I have seriously this is not an exaggeration I have 400 patient files to fill out for medicare! not to mention that medicare is evil. So I am pulling a long day tomorrow ( Read more... )

I got up early for work today, was tough, i really hated that alarm. it's been awhile since i have worked mornings. I usually work the afternoons. Blah and i am not a morning person at all. I felt horrible yesterday, and I couldn't do the candlelight walk for lauren because passed out ( Read more... )

it was my mom's birthday, so we stopped in to wish her a happy birthday. God i hate her sometimes! what a sick ass bitch. She is killing me. God i i won't be able to eat for days now. she was looking at pics. she said that she came across some of me when i was really little. I was naked. I of course feel embarrassed by them. Then she hints of when ( Read more... )

It's easy not to eat when you hear this from your mom, and one of your closest friends. My mom always has the effect on me, where i see her and starve for a week, my punishment to myself i guess.

Here is a convo between me and one of my best friends Shannon.

i got so upet that i took laxatives and water pills. Won't purge i will not purge...

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Lauren ( Read more... )

I felt so blessed, when I came home from a VERY long day at work, to find messages and so many e-mails! My best friend Pam, I was and i am so lucky that she is ( Read more... )