remembering old friends
Maybe it's me remembering old friends that has me feeling so depressed.
I just read in a friends journal about a drowing and it made me freeze. I couldn't help but remember. Today i was so sad, almost sucicidail. i made this promise not to do that, after hearing from my doctors that I was gonna die, from the complications of anorexia, gives ya another outlook on life,when they say that you are gonna die.
I just felt i needed to write about my friends lost..
will put it uder the cut, as it will be long.
This won't be in order.
I will go with the fresh to my mind. Matt who died the summer of 1992 A bunch of us were at the dam and Eric was fooling around and slipped into the water, he couldn't swim, and Matt was a great swimmer. Trisha Matts sister was there and she was screaming when she saw matt jump in, He got eric on to a log or something and eric got out. Then Angie my best friend at the time stood there in shock as trisha was crying and yelling for matt. We could just stand there and watch matt go up and down with this whirlpool. it took the EMT's 20 minutes to get there. And when they arrived it took another 15 to get the dam shut off. of course matt is dead and we are watching his lifeless body like he was in a washing machine. None of us talk about it, it's to hard.
Lauren who died in june of 2001. She was on her way to come and see manda and i with her new corvette. When so jerk off ran a light and Lauren was killed, she was in a coma til August when her family finally let her go. There is a cross and flowers at the palce where she died. She was a great Golfer, and manda and i weren't great, but we went and had great laughs. I haven't golfed since i lost lauren.
Julie who died in 2002 she took her life. Her boyfriend and Tim were called over to serve in the war in IRAQ. They seemed so happy. The weekend before she died, I went to Madison and she dyed my hair pink, cause i had fallen asleep and that was revenge, for becoming a party pooper. She was so amazing. I got a call that Monday from our friend Hannah, that she was gonna send the letter, Julie called us the three stoges, We met in school and Julie was laid to rest in alabama, so hannah and i couldn't make it.
Last year I lost ashley to cancer, Em and Tim to anorexia. My anorexic sponsor who was in recovery died December 2nd 2003, she fell ill with the flu, and her body went into shock and she had a stroke, later that night her heart stopped.
RIP Matt, Lauren, Julie, Em, Tim, Neil, Ashley, and Lily
I just read in a friends journal about a drowing and it made me freeze. I couldn't help but remember. Today i was so sad, almost sucicidail. i made this promise not to do that, after hearing from my doctors that I was gonna die, from the complications of anorexia, gives ya another outlook on life,when they say that you are gonna die.
I just felt i needed to write about my friends lost..
will put it uder the cut, as it will be long.
This won't be in order.
I will go with the fresh to my mind. Matt who died the summer of 1992 A bunch of us were at the dam and Eric was fooling around and slipped into the water, he couldn't swim, and Matt was a great swimmer. Trisha Matts sister was there and she was screaming when she saw matt jump in, He got eric on to a log or something and eric got out. Then Angie my best friend at the time stood there in shock as trisha was crying and yelling for matt. We could just stand there and watch matt go up and down with this whirlpool. it took the EMT's 20 minutes to get there. And when they arrived it took another 15 to get the dam shut off. of course matt is dead and we are watching his lifeless body like he was in a washing machine. None of us talk about it, it's to hard.
Lauren who died in june of 2001. She was on her way to come and see manda and i with her new corvette. When so jerk off ran a light and Lauren was killed, she was in a coma til August when her family finally let her go. There is a cross and flowers at the palce where she died. She was a great Golfer, and manda and i weren't great, but we went and had great laughs. I haven't golfed since i lost lauren.
Julie who died in 2002 she took her life. Her boyfriend and Tim were called over to serve in the war in IRAQ. They seemed so happy. The weekend before she died, I went to Madison and she dyed my hair pink, cause i had fallen asleep and that was revenge, for becoming a party pooper. She was so amazing. I got a call that Monday from our friend Hannah, that she was gonna send the letter, Julie called us the three stoges, We met in school and Julie was laid to rest in alabama, so hannah and i couldn't make it.
Last year I lost ashley to cancer, Em and Tim to anorexia. My anorexic sponsor who was in recovery died December 2nd 2003, she fell ill with the flu, and her body went into shock and she had a stroke, later that night her heart stopped.
RIP Matt, Lauren, Julie, Em, Tim, Neil, Ashley, and Lily