my stomach still kills. i went to the doctor and got some anti-biotic. one of these days i go in for the shot. eh, i hate shots. lenny is coming to hold my hand ( Read more... )

the weekend wasnt bad. work.game.cubs.lenny.work.sleep.church.work.sleep.sixflags.sleep. that's a small summary of the weekend. we left the game in a hurry. the cubs were all we could think of, so lenny and i went to my house and watched the game until 11:45. he stayed until 1, then i went to sleep. saturday was bland. i worked, then jess and ( Read more... )

so many memories and great feelings ran through my veins yesterday. i'm glad to see the pictures are still up, and nothing has really changed.

lenny came over last night. we watched cruel intentions and the simpsons,and...the lovin...just kept coming. <3 i love him. we have a lot of catching up to do. we haven't wrestled or watched movies, ( Read more... )

every ounce of loneliness has been flushed out of my head. i'm thinking clearer, its not so cloudy anymore, and it's all because of you.
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yesterday i couldnt have felt more frazzled. homecoming is the most stressful time of the year. it felt like i never stopped yesterday. everything turned out pretty good. my hair, jessica's hair (which only took me an hour this time), i had 2 make-ups to do besides mine, they turned out great too. lenny looked good, so did kevin. i felt ( Read more... )

the night ended with 2 pairs of swollen eyes, and 2 mended hearts. i'm sory for crying, and not being truthful about alot of things, i dont want you to think that this isnt what i want more than anything, because that couldnt be any farther from the truth. its all i want. i felt very alone and incomplete the past 2 months, and now, i dont feel ( Read more... )

this is it. what's meant to be finally found its way back to my heart, and now its skipping a beat. every other word out of my mouth seems to be love, but i cant help but be proud and confident. everything now seems to be coming together. i would be lying if i said i was happy a month ago, or even a week ago, i thought i truly was, but now, i ( Read more... )

i cant keep my eyes open. lastnight was another late night. i worked until 9, but i was hoping to get off at 7. that, unfortunately didnt happen. lenny came to visit me at work. he stayed for awhile, it was pleasant. when he left i walked him out to his truck and we hugged for the first time in forever it seems like. i came home and felt ( Read more... )

this wont hurt i swear but please dont close your eyes as i climb out again to see your face again darling. wont recover from the fall wont bother to try but theres no reason to when the fall was into love with you ( Read more... )