This knife cut fashion lacks compassion
this is it. what's meant to be finally found its way back to my heart, and now its skipping a beat. every other word out of my mouth seems to be love, but i cant help but be proud and confident. everything now seems to be coming together. i would be lying if i said i was happy a month ago, or even a week ago, i thought i truly was, but now, i know i truly am. a permenant smile has erupted on my lips, and butterflies now reside in my stomach.
there is one thing that bothers me. what happened between lenny and haley i have many questions about...many questions that i wish i wanted answered, but i know hearing it would kill me. i dont want to feel like i have to be compared to her when it comes to certain aspects of our relationship, but there are things about her that i dont even come close to having. i know lenny loves me for who i am, and i know he's in love with me, and doesnt just love me for a friend like he does with haley, but it still makes me cringe and want to cry when i think about it. it makes me want to wait forever before i let anything happen between us because i'm so nervous about being not good enough or not comparing to her...uhh dont feel this way lena...
today was class color day, and lenny and i looked adorable with our matching capes, my pink wig and his skunk mullet, and our all around cuteness.
i got my nails done tonight, and my eyebrows waxed. they look good, i thinned them a little for all of you who care. i wish that lenny and i could go to homecoming together. i know that i will have plenty of fun with kevin cos he is awesome, but its just not fair. damn it. we want to get a picture together, we are dancing together, and i'm sure at dinner i will sit by him, but its just not the same. ohhh well...we still have prom, that is much more exciting than homecoming. i cant wait for that.
tomorrow is spirit day, work, game, then saturday is homecoming. blah
there is one thing that bothers me. what happened between lenny and haley i have many questions about...many questions that i wish i wanted answered, but i know hearing it would kill me. i dont want to feel like i have to be compared to her when it comes to certain aspects of our relationship, but there are things about her that i dont even come close to having. i know lenny loves me for who i am, and i know he's in love with me, and doesnt just love me for a friend like he does with haley, but it still makes me cringe and want to cry when i think about it. it makes me want to wait forever before i let anything happen between us because i'm so nervous about being not good enough or not comparing to her...uhh dont feel this way lena...
today was class color day, and lenny and i looked adorable with our matching capes, my pink wig and his skunk mullet, and our all around cuteness.
i got my nails done tonight, and my eyebrows waxed. they look good, i thinned them a little for all of you who care. i wish that lenny and i could go to homecoming together. i know that i will have plenty of fun with kevin cos he is awesome, but its just not fair. damn it. we want to get a picture together, we are dancing together, and i'm sure at dinner i will sit by him, but its just not the same. ohhh well...we still have prom, that is much more exciting than homecoming. i cant wait for that.
tomorrow is spirit day, work, game, then saturday is homecoming. blah