it always seems something of a jellyfish ( Read more... )

what are those small intimations that ( Read more... )

its like even typing about it is absurd and ridiculous. I don't even know why it is I am. But here it is, although I'm not quite sure if I'm really here or if I'm just reacting to some natural flow of thoughts through my fingers. Either way it'll probably be a mess and I'm not sure how to make it not so complicated. I think things have been bad ( Read more... )

it's been a while since I've typed in here. I guess these past couple of months have been busy, both in a good and a bad way. Kidney problems, as usual, but I digress. It's the least of my worries despite the apparent gravity of the situation, I think mainly because I'm really happy and don't care to think about it. Things have been good, and ( Read more... )

"she's only happy in the sun ( Read more... )

listening to music at 2 in the morning, The Beautiful Girls have some great songs ( Read more... )

talk about unpleasant days. I think maybe I could make it better if I felt more inclined to, but I guess I don't, otherwise I wouldn't be dwelling on negative feelings. I don't know. I think normally I'm up to being positive and keep things on a good level, but tonight it feels like I couldn't, really, and I knew it the moment I woke up this ( Read more... )

I sent Jake an email last night I didn't remember I had written. I thought I'd post it here, for the sake of the rant ( Read more... )

I feel as though things are not what they should be, or what I would like them to be. I think that I feel almost left alone... I don't care to respond to anything else... or I guess I could....

I sent myself a text message today. To remind myself. But it's all so ridiculous. I don't know why I must remind myself. But I did it, and I read it a while ago, when I had already completely forgotten what it was I had been so distraught about, and it just told me "Orange will drag you in, get out while you still can". and then I remembered ( Read more... )