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I sent Jake an email last night I didn't remember I had written. I thought I'd post it here, for the sake of the rant.
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no man, beck is on the 19th and 20th. Sorry. But I'll check something out. We should definitely do something cool like that. Anyway, yeah, it'll be cool having you come down, man. I dont' think we've ever hung out like that, actually. It's a trip. It'll be really great. I'm looking forward to it.
anyway, tonight was different, just hanging around and having a good time. I think this whole next week will be ridiculous. I have no class and I feel as though when I have no structure in my life I go crazy and don't do anything meaningful and make it all a mess. I don't know what I'm saying. I've been drinking heavily and feel alone. I wish you could give me a call. yeah!
I miss being able to not give a flying fuck. Whatever. Things will get better for all.
Simply put, it will be amazing hanging out. Yes!
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I think I need to hold out until December, that way it will seem like I never cared and all will be okay. Or, it'll feel like I shouldn't have cared to begin with. But I think I'll be okay once I get to that point. I need to not allow myself to get too attached, and then I'll remember what it is I'm doing and not be taken by pure whim.
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no man, beck is on the 19th and 20th. Sorry. But I'll check something out. We should definitely do something cool like that. Anyway, yeah, it'll be cool having you come down, man. I dont' think we've ever hung out like that, actually. It's a trip. It'll be really great. I'm looking forward to it.
anyway, tonight was different, just hanging around and having a good time. I think this whole next week will be ridiculous. I have no class and I feel as though when I have no structure in my life I go crazy and don't do anything meaningful and make it all a mess. I don't know what I'm saying. I've been drinking heavily and feel alone. I wish you could give me a call. yeah!
I miss being able to not give a flying fuck. Whatever. Things will get better for all.
Simply put, it will be amazing hanging out. Yes!
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I think I need to hold out until December, that way it will seem like I never cared and all will be okay. Or, it'll feel like I shouldn't have cared to begin with. But I think I'll be okay once I get to that point. I need to not allow myself to get too attached, and then I'll remember what it is I'm doing and not be taken by pure whim.