Near fruition....

My friends are either dead or deleted...
though I am not lonely.
I know no lover...
however it makes me stronger.
I do not trust good intentions....
it saves me from obligation.
But, I am vulnerable in just two ways...
just look for the blood stains...

What happened to you?

...the thought is too much for me to shoulder. A mouth that can't speak...legs that are frozen and lead straining my arms I am usesless to prevent it.

...don't do it... please wait... I was never given a chance.

I pushed the button nice knowing you and fuck the rest of you.

how sad.....

Amazingly enough I have stuck with my excersize regimine though I'm soooo very friggin sick still. And I have lost eight-teen pounds in the past five weeks. weeeeeeeee...And just when I was going to go out and buy some more clothes to fit better. I'm still really exhausted all the time, but the testosterone replacement therapy should take care of ( Read more... )

How I wish someone was missing me right now, and I die knowing that i'm all alone ( Read more... )

Heat and humidity penitrate my being causing me to rust and short circuit. I spent most of the day nodding off and drifting into uncontrolled thoughts sssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss ( Read more... )

...kinda had too much chai at 2am so I "cleaned house" as much as one can when the live in one room. Micromanagement...but more than that. Micro-sexual lifestyle to go with my micromeals, microfriends, and micropaycheck. This sounds like it could be a miserable existence if it weren't for the fact that it's convenient. Sometimes I can't remember ( Read more... )

I can't believe I just noticed this but it would seem somehow someone accessed my live journal and deleted a majority of the first year or two of my posts... and the only ones that remain are the ones that are marked private.... very strange indeed ( Read more... )

I went to child support court today and I was quite nervous that things wouldn't go well. Much to my surprise I got A LOT OF HELP!!! I'm only two payments behind and everything will be caught up and no more courts looming over me. Since I was the last person Judge Egger and I had a long discussion about my three kids and the options available to me ( Read more... )