I've just seen Platoon. Made me wanna cry and scream. This movie... it's violent and so full of the reality of what happened there ( Read more... )

A week of holiday and I'm in Toulouse again. It's harder than before, I can't help to feel bad about what I do here. I know I do it for me but, maybe I'm just wasting my time, maybe I won't do anything with my life, I don't know ( Read more... )

I don't fell good. Anytimes, anywhere, since I'm here, I can't feel good, except for when I'm talking with my best friends or my parents, or when I'm on the Internet (aka love of mylife lol). I don't know if I will handle that this year, not to mention the next one ( Read more... )

On friday night, there was a party. I usually love to dance on rock music, or pop, when I'm with my friends. Whan I'm alone with strangers, I discovered that I mostly end up crying. (well, the whole glass of vokda they made me drink is perhaps involved in it >_> With the sangria. and the strange drink they gave me) I end up crying and a girl from ( Read more... )

Tonight I have the first day of a week-end of integration >_> Don't know exactly yet what will happen. A sophomore girl told me the friday night will be about godparents, and saturday, there will be some hazing... With dog food and other things. I don't think I will stay, cause I don't sleep, I won't be able to handle this... Besides, there will be ( Read more... )

My social life is like, dead. The only 2 real friends I have are so far away from me, and next year, one of them is going to the USA. I don't even want to think to it. She is my best friend, I can't live without her. But I can't make her stay here (and I don't want to ( Read more... )

I'm trying to write this in english, so please, if anybode read it, don't pay attention to the several mistakes I will do ( Read more... )