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[nannyo]

oh work has been very intense recently. My move to the shared office has vastly increased my productivity (surprise surprise! No Icanhazcheezburger/knit blogs/ facebook = more work) and has at the same time increased my self-worth. Oops, who knew? Apparently when I acheive things, I feel good about myself

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[innerbrat]

Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes.

I'm about 80% sure I will not complete my PhD, and I'm still waiting for someone to express surprise I even have a degree.

[nannyo]

Do you think it's a gender thing? Do we feel it more than the guys we know in the same fields? I think it's worse without a doubt when I'm working and researching on my own too, so the PHUD stuff makes total sense. I bet your advisor would be surprised you felt that way though...

Are we are own worst enemies?

[innerbrat]

I think it's definitely a gender thing - although not exclusively so. I only heard about it from someone who said it was a thing women get more often.

It's possibly a social thing rather than biological - women can't succeed in these male dominated areas, so how come we are?

[innerbrat]

totally a social thing! If it were biological, I think it would be more specific than it is.

[evilbun]

Oh god yeah.

I really like my job, and have come into it with no experience of working with bikes and little experience of working with children. And yet somehow they employed me... and everyone else doing my job is amazing and bright and inspired......

IMPOSTER!!

[evilbun]

but you're ace at it! Cos you organise Leos, and you know how to do all the bike stuff, maintenance etc, and you are full of enthuse. That's why they hired you. I know that's not terribly helpful when it creeps up on us, but maybe we should have a little list of the things we do well, so we can chase away the goblins that way.
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[pink_weasel]

When other people go off to a meeting, I often worry that it's about firing me. It never is.

I often get fear half way through doing things and then stop. I'm learning to power on through, but it's hard and I can't imagine ever doing anything from start to finish without having terror clenches in the middle.

People I work with don't appear to have this, but I can't tell.

[blue_cat]

They havn't caught me out yet *looks shifty* only a matter of time though!

[nannyo]

that's sort of what I mean, that no matter how strong our family programming is for achievement, the examples on the telly or even in kids books tend to be of women in certain roles (star trek, until recently only had women as communicators or carers, etc etc), so maybe when we step outside those roles we feel a bit like we might be suspect? I think it's all terribly unconscious too, cos I was always told I could do whatever I worked at, and yet still STILL.

Not all the time though, and I think it must be the same for any number of men. Social stuff is SO complex, even more than biology inside of bodies...
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oooh, also, I'm bringing your Temeraire book back, what else of yours do I have? Anything else I can bring you?