"Still we try to pick up the pieces ( Read more... )

The past should stay dead. For what its worth I have tried to kill it multiple times. It just keeps creeping up in the twilight when my mind is between worlds just long enough to keep me awake a few fleeting moments longer and poison my escape. I have to stop.

I'm slowly killing myself and nobody even notices. They pitch in to be honest. I have been through a lifetime these past few years. I lost a family. I do a lot of losing it seems. I lost weight, I guess that is a good thing as I do not feel like a COMPLETE fat useless cuck. Been drowning myself in things that keep my mind off how worthless ( Read more... )

I hate the fact that I never got that second chance I was promised. I hate the fact that he gets your heart when I worked so hard. What is so wrong with me that I don't even deserve a proper goodbye? god dammit this sucks. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't even get out of bed. All I want is you in my arms and to tell me that you love me and ( Read more... )

Last night I forgot how the sound of your voice whispered sweet goodbyes. Your eyes left to die. I'm alone to understand why. Why not one more night? One last kiss goodbye? My sweet love, tonight I hope the stars still spell out your name where you are. Kiss my closing eyes and help me sleep, without you I'm so lost. I can't live without your warm

What is this life?

So it's has been a LONG time. Maybe I can actually start to write again. We shall see. Merci pour le venin.

I miss my mom.

I'm such a loser :) LJ brings back all kinds of memories. Things have been so simple lately I'm begining to think that I forgot how real life works. I need a new routine, i'm getting tired of this one. Maybe I'll start a new hobby or even get a real job. I'm just so bored lately I cant think about anything but the boredom. Maybe sleep will lead to ( Read more... )

HA! I GET TO SEE TOOL IN TWO DAYS!