I want to be somebody different, and i want nobody to know me, and i want to see who accepts me...i am just so sick of being who i am, and not really feeling like anybody gives a fuck! Like, seriously, my senior year has been wasted for the most part, everyone is always depressed and sad and crap and i am so over it! It just seems like such a waste ( Read more... )

I am going to shoot myself in the head...this cannto happen to me again, i hate this feeling!Dislike with an intense passion. Life has to be kidding me right now. my head is pounding. and i want it to stop. i need more sleep, lots of it. its punding like a runners heart after a race.anyways...despite all the crazy nonsense going on inside my head, ( Read more... )

I never think that much about the new year, this new year scares me, because im graduating...and then what?! what am i going to with my life, will it amount to anything worthwhile. God, i pray that you have something worthwhile planned for my life, and guide me in the right direction to fill it. Senior year is supposed to be the most fun, exciting ( Read more... )

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood ( Read more... )

I cannto believe how much kyle is over reacting right now! I told him taryn might not be able to go if she does'nt have the money, and he is like...going off on me, and i was like 'WELL IF SHE DOESNT GO IM NOT GOING, AND THAT MEANS U WONT HAVE A RIDE' and he is like...getting all fucking butt hurt! Now he is all like...o, im not mad, i just think ( Read more... )

I do not think my family *immediate* can be around each other in confiend spaces for very long, somebody always ends up arguing or fighting, sometimes i do, but not in a bad way, i usually just sit quietly and avoid everything. My cousin aws sick, and we just found out john has diabetes, lovely, sam was so stressed! I LOVE HER! She is amazing ,and ( Read more... )

I'm so disappointed...MORE THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE ( Read more... )

NURAL was amazing last night...theo ther bands werent so great, but nural was awesome! And kyle called carly afterword to say hi and say he was sorry she couldnt make it...how rad is that of him! Great performance. BEAUTIFUL...and we all laughed and had a grand ol' time!

My own father makes me feel so unwanted. Because he doesnt give a shit about me. He doesnt know anything about me, and he doesnt care. He replaced us, with sam and lex...I watched him looking at my pictures, he stared at the one of mom and terry hugging for a long time...GOOD! Stare at the beautiful woman you had a chance with, but screwed it up, ( Read more... )

BASTARDS BASTARDS BASTARDS, im such an idiot ( Read more... )