Freakout

[myliquidsecret]

Over the past week I've moved back to my hometown, visited friends, ran errands, tried to clean my room to make it liveable, and tried to organize a garage sale. I feel like a total fuck up. I keep doing things, and sucking down my feelings, but I miss my school! I miss feeling like I actually have a purpose in this life. I feel like such a

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[ismira]

when i felt like you, i went to AA and al anon... changes are hard, and getting support was the key for me... it changed my life.
just remember, this too shall pass. hang in there... and i encourage you to go to 12 step meetings. *hugs

[myliquidsecret]

Thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate your thoughts.

[dodger72]

Aye, I agree.

Have you been to a twelve step meetin'? If you can, hit a beginner's meeting and just listen...or talk if the mood strikes you.

Whatever you think you are alone in or at...you are not. We've all been there at one point or another, our stories vary, however they are all the same.

One is too many and a thousand is never enough....

Keep posting.

[myliquidsecret]

I haven't been to any meetings. On an unrelated note, I hate meetings, especially staff meetings. They just go on too long and I'm always wanting to read or go for a walk, anything but sit someplace and listen to people talk.

A kind LJer sent me a copy of the book Moderation Management and I've been reading that and working through it.

[dodger72]

I've heard of that, Moderation Management. Hmmm.

Good luck with that and let me know how it works for you. I know I can't drink anymore. I had to completely remove alcohol from my life. No drinking on the weekends, or limiting it to wine or whatever.

I hope that it works for you. Let me know how life is for you in a couple of months after trying the MM.

Peace