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during three days one night camp from work last week, i talked to my also-friend workmate about how i am still hurt from the treatment i got back when i was a child. she then muttered, "have you tried getting to know about your inner child?" then i realized i haven't been taking care of myself these past few years ( Read more... )

there are some questions hanging above my head, and they're kinda intruding me, so i might just dump them here in case it helps.
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today i saw a tweet on my timeline saying how infj claim themselves as murderers and actually murder something (lol). i know this shouldn't be taken seriously but seeing this the only thing i could think of is how i've been constantly struggling to kill my own feelings. sometimes they can be very hard to handle, frustrating, and unnecessary.

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i remember back in college days, someone described me as "a smiley friend who never gets angry" when asked to write down his impression of me. that description, of course, made me happy. i was described as a kind, super bubbly person, who handled their emotions well. but truth is, i don't. i am stupid at managing and expressing my own emotions, ( Read more... )

it's the start of weekend tonight and to be frank i couldn't believe i made it safely (again) this week.

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this past few weeks have been ugly.

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