Everyday is like Sunday.

[mudville]

Warning: This is the longest LiveJournal entry ever, conveniently split up into segments so you may read at your leisure. Haha, like people read this thing. Never in my short-lived LJ career have I felt quite so unpopular. But it's alright. It has to be

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[ningyo_chan]

you probably won't like me after i tell you this, but i'm sorta [but not really] like "churchgirl" i go to church sometimes but not usually with my mom, &i avoid people my age &when guys talk to me i try to brush them off not because i want nothing to do with them but because i know that they won't want anything to do with me when they find out what i'm like, because i go out with my friends &get drunk, because i used to be a heavy drug user, because i'm a not-so-recovering alcoholic, because i go to church &pretend that i'm like them, but really i'm on the other side of it all, &i'd like to be like them, but i'd rather be like me now, because "me" has lots of fun with her friends, flirting with guys, blahblahblah... i used to have lots of friends at church, many of them moved away, lots of them were in "leadership" positions [worship team mainly, i used to sing on it when i was younger], telling me that the choices i was making would eventually destroy me, but then i would find out that they got their girlfriend pregnant, or i would

[mudville]

"&now you hate me"

quite the contrary, my LJ friend. but we shall talk more about this later. (the short version is that i wanted a friend, not a nun.... wait til I list all MY issues for ya.) thank you a lot for sharing with me.

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[ningyo_chan]

really
wow
ok

[mudville]

dear emptygirl,
you are not.

i'm pretty sure she just thought i was an ugly gork, but i wonder if churchgirl felt that way... that she was 'false advertisement' or something. i did my darndest in the note to make no presumptions about her or her lifestyle. at the same time, i didn't really reveal much about myself either. (Though i had desperately hoped she'd read between the lines and see something there

[ningyo_chan]

oh &merry christmas

[goldenskye]

churchgirl reminds me of the first girl i ever liked, and the second. the 3 of us were mutual friends...ish.

i will have to tell you the stories sometime...wow, i'm recommenting on you. must be 'cause i miss ya. ::hugs:: love you, boyo