week three on zoloft ( Read more... )

i cut for the first time in a few weeks last night.  i was interrupted and unsatisfied.

i havent drank in two weeks. amazing.
i hate it.

im going to see a psychiatrist  for the first time @ 9am tm....i cant sleep.

i
dont
want
to.

i saw two doctors yesterday...  my old one, my favourite... and the new one ( Read more... )

happy birthday my sweet friend, you are greatly missed.

its almost four years. and i still cry for you.

today just sucks.
youre gone, and its fathers day.
fuck fathers day.
and here i am, pathetic, drinking alone and stealing weed from my boyfriend because i cant breathe. i cannot breathe anymore.
i almost passed out in the grocery store.
my eyes rolled ( Read more... )

nothing like minding your own business at work and noticing that the fat fucking slob piece of shit who you thought was your friend and then came to your room pretending to be making sure youre not killing yourself and oh surprise im raping you....hes sitting with his fat fucking disgusting body at the bar ( Read more... )

note to self: when you decided to quit drinking...there was a reason for that ( Read more... )

drunken mess slicing flesh ( Read more... )

i dont know why i get so horribly horribly miserable. out. of. nowhere ( Read more... )

its been awhile...i was doing so much better.

i actually got away-i got to sit on the beach with the love of my life for  a whole week and do nothing but smile.  I did not get sad one time and it was glorious. i found that since my return i have been much more able to deal -which i am so eternally grateful to the island of jamaica for.

unfortunately ( Read more... )

i have been down tremendously this week ( Read more... )