How things change - and how they are still an absolute mess!
last night was weeeeeiiiird! (bristolian pronunciation!)
I didn't go to karate, but everyone came round after to see if I wanted to go to the pub.. so we did & it was shut, lol.. well it was about 11pm so we decided to come back with vodka and port...... and the odd drop of coke!
So.... we all ended up on my bed.. not in a dirty way ha ha. We were ( Read more... )
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But please be careful with him... I read through the conversation, the vibes from it aren't good.
Most men are just after one thing...once they have it, your no longer of any use to them. You've told him private things about you, just make sure he doesn't talk his away into your bed, by using what he knows against you.
I just worry.
xXx
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it's okay, can judge all you want :)
I'm worried about it too
which is why I'm not gonna let it turn into a sex thing
have told him it's not important and that I couldn't/wouldn't sleep with him whilst he's with his girlfriend
he is quite a flirt
& somethings kinda upset me, but also think that's prob all men... they're all like it aren't they
but he's a good guy too
i think!
thanks for your comment anyway :)!
#hope you're okay.xxx
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isn't that shit! why are they like that?
hmmm. It was too far gone, I took notice of what you said & I Was thinkin it too.. but somewhere along the way it striked me that maybe it was as a good idea to sleep with him, where did that logic come from! I was going to text you that night, before.. because I knew what was happening and where it was going
you know when the only thing you can do is go along with it
when you compromise your self-respect for other peoples wants and so not to upset them
if i had struggled, if i knew what i really wanted,
if i had a self of worth seperate
And I am sorry. Sorry that I wasn't careful. What a mess! Fucking STD or something, I dont know. Jan siad she'd take me to clinic but now she's fucked off.dont want it.
And I feel sorry for harpin on about myself and not knowing what is going on in your life. I know it's your choice but feel bad somehow. And hopefully you'll be going to Sal's birthday plans, it'd be really good to see you.x
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