I'm gonna miss LJ a fuckload - it's been over 5 and a half years!
But it's become really unhealthy for me, to be fair it started that way too.
I'll miss reading everyones entries but I hope people realise it doesn't mean I don't care.
So to anyone who has noticed - bye bye :).

And I miss you, like I always have
And always will,
Missing you like I'll never see you again,
And I pray for your comforting irish voice,
To come echoing down these cold corridors,
Easing away my pain.

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Might get home today. Meant to see Steve at 11. Had quite a few stitches. Hit a vein :s. Sorry don't know how to put stuff behind an lj cut on my phone.

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"you have Anorexia" doctor said.

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Hopefully going home tomorrow with home treatment and complex cases plus ED services and still got Steve for up to three years. Feeling a lot more stable. It's hard thinking about what I have done to myself this past week. I genuinely think I'd be dead if I wasn't hospitalsed. But it is strange to think about now because I feel different, it's so ( Read more... )

Scared .

And convo went
Hello dad have you got the messages I sent you over the past few days?
Yes, what do you want me to say?
I don't know
I don't either
Well is that it? I've got things to do? Is that it?
Yeah........
Bye
Bye

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15.9

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Wish I could post pic new hair. Though I have a huge bold patch and a littler one. Shocks me what I've done to myself when I think about it. Nurse isn't letting me go to my room, she doesn't want to go to A&E again. She says shell take me out for dinner but I have to order more than an apple! I love her. A lot of them are quite friendly.

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I can't describe how horrific being here has been. In a way it's been good because I've had the support I desperately needed and wouldn't have got anywhere else, especially considering the depth of distress. I have been better today. I still feel tired all the time though. I know I need to organise more things to occupy me when I get out. Feeling a ( Read more... )

Half hour til next cig. Managed to get my phone back after second room search where they took pretty much everything! On haloperidol as well now and quetiapine is being increased to goodness knows what, it's already at 300mg. Can hopefully go home weds,doc just wants to see how the meds work for a few days, afterrall i've been in a&e the past two ( Read more... )