I love her too much to want to live anymore. It's hurting too much, everything hurts.

I've tried to come to grips with what I believe could be the end of the greatest thing to ever be apart of my meaningless life. Part of me is in denial and another is grasping at dead molding inner straw, but all of me is in complete pain.
I need her, but I can't have her and it's poisoning my heart.

I can't stop thinking about what she said, and it's making me want to throw in the towel.
It's making me feel sick.
One of us is awful.

I just got a call from the supervisor at Sunshine Delivery, and my drug screen came back negative despite the four medications the doctor has me on for migraines. Which means I got the job ( Read more... )

I've posted a new myspace page with a couple songs i've been working on, and an old song that me and austin recorded a few years ago that's kind of a bossa nova lounge tune. The first song is one that me and steve wrote together, and I re-recorded a few months ago from scratch ( Read more... )

I've declined the T-mobile job for a significantly less cool of a job, and for less pay. But if everything goes as has been planned by my new boss (who is a very kick ass guy i've known for almost a year now), i'll be making a salary that I thought would take years to work up to. Who knows. It's one of those things that sounds almost too good to be ( Read more... )

Once again, It's been awhile since I wrote in here. I've re-discovered writting in my real life book journal. I broke the cardinal rule the other day writting in it though. I found a VERY VERY lude and very sacreligious picture in a hustler and decided to put it in my journal for obvious reason. But apon reflecting, and realizing that my possible ( Read more... )

I know it's only been weeks since I last posted something here, but it feels like years.

I'm in a strange place lately; it's something subtle as it is off putting. At times it's nauseating, and other times it's lucid. But always subtle.

I haven't written here in a while, and although i'm not feeling so inspired I thought I would just write something ( Read more... )

a few days ago a girl whom i've been seeing possibly stole some pain killers that i've been taking for my wrist/tendon pain ( Read more... )