a few thoughts on a random sunday can unlock a chest full of pretty little nothings and phrases that won't change the world - but merely sit for a while to fill in a tiny tiny tiny corner of some tiny insignificant unknown place (my heart? your heart? etc ( Read more... )

wish I didnt alienate myself from anyone who ever meant something to me ( Read more... )

yesterday was the best day i've had my whole life. a beautiful innocent boy. a park. a swing set. the promise of everything.

and i'm terrified of it all being for nothing.

i'm terrified
that he'll never call again.

fuck you.

for being unable
to save me.

my surgery went okay. i had my sinuses worked on and my nose shaved down - fixing an old fracture that the bone over grew ( Read more... )

i have my surgery at 11 today ( Read more... )

he told me to read 1 Corinthians 13:4-13 ( Read more... )

i've been addicted to postsecret.com lately and i'm thinking that it's almost not as much telling secrets but a truth about oneself. and i just told my deepest secret. so i thought i'd try it out and even though it's not anonymous this is just a kind of poem-type confession thing ( Read more... )

this is because i'm ready ( Read more... )

today was great

my prof. sent me an email that said my paper was terrific, joey came over for a while and i danced around my room and sang for him. tbs and rilo kiley <3 ( Read more... )