yesterday.....man....

today.....I couldn't go to church....I hope John's not mad....I just couldn't....I'm not bitter or anything....I just wish it didn't have to be that way.

I miss you more than anything.

*TopS*

I'm going to Chicago on the 18th....it'd be cool if me and Em hang out on Monday...yeah....
so summers here....and what the fuck is everyone really up too!?!?

*TOpS*

I am a sinner...

I can't love my bestfriend the way I think he really wants me to.....

I can't stop...

I could, but it's too much fun....

Fuck it...

*TopS*

I am a sinner beyond sinners
I lie and cry all for the same thing
Things with you seem to good to be true
I don't know what to do, I'm falling for you
It's not fair to play this cruel game of love
and un-love unlike
tomorrow is another day to make it all alright!
(but i doubt it)

*TOpS*
ps I'm so glad I have you!

I got so drunk yesterday afternoon. With the up and coming holiday that I despise so much, I couldn't help but think of how it was last year. I wish you were here, I wish you were here to curse the day with me and kick in the face when it's down. I would hold you and tell you that I'll always be there for you, that last gentle kiss we shared ( Read more... )

I have the hugest crush on ramsey's philosophy professor, when i look at him i think ethan hawke from dead poets society....it's sexy....why are smart men so attractive, and when their dorky it's even better......things with my boyfriend are awesome! everythings just dandy...miss you's guys!

*TOpS*

ching....

on a side note John's dad started a church, it rocked! everyone who knew John should go! For the reals!

*TOpS*

I have just seen a face I cant forget the time or place where we first met. your just the boy for me, and I want all the world to see we met, his name was pablo nunez. psssshhh.....and you don't say a word.

*TOpS*

So like, I have come to the realization that the people I consider my friends don't really care, about me, about anything, I guess that's the way it goes. It's kinda like people that smoke crack, I walk by them I think, how sad it is to be a crack addict,then I make fun of then, and talk shit about how being a crack addict sucks, then I think ( Read more... )

So saturday was Joaquins birthday.....and damnit....he came down to visit, everyone was here, the whole crew, we got drunk, played some 8 player halo 2 and (like it should be) my team kicked fucking ass! hahah man, it made me miss the good ole' days, fucking bastards, it's hard to come by good friends now a days, and i miss the jerks.....i can be ( Read more... )