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Well, Michael and Marie's funeral was yesterday and although it was sad and painful, it also brought me a bit of closure.
The morning of the funeral, the whole family gathered at my mum's house, at about 10 am. Almost no-one was wearing black, at my request. At 10.30am, a black limo arrived to pick up me, my mum and dad, my sister Maxine, and my nan ( Read more... ) -
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Michael and Marie's funeral draws closer, and I'm starting to panic a bit. I'm worried I won't be able to cope on the day. It's going to be really painful.
Me and mum went back to the funeral home yesterday, because Ray (the funeral director) needed the music that is going to play as we go in to the crem. I got upset because he recommended it be a ( Read more... ) -
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I went the other day to organise the babies funeral. I've asked that only close family attend, and that they don't wear black. The Funeral director is doing it all for free because they were only babies. They are sending a limo for us on the day to take us to the cremetorium. The babies will be together in their little white casket, which I will ( Read more... ) -
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I come on to my journal all the time to read my friend page, and I just realised I haven't posted a journal entry in ages, even though I've had a lot to write about. Truth is, I've been through a lot in the last couple of months and what's happened has changed me forever.
In July, I got pregnant. Whan I found out during my second scan that it was ( Read more... ) -
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Okay, so the rash got even worse last night.....the nettle-like bumps all merged together to form giant whit welts on my skin, I looked like I'd been burned! I went to bed still itching and then I woke up at 6am and the rash had faded on my upper body, but was now all over my thighs ( Read more... ) -
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OMG, this rash has gotten WORSE. It is worse on my neck and chest, but now it's spread to my lower arms, my entire back, and my face. It is so fucking ITCHY! The only way I can describe it is that it looks a bit like nettle stings only ten times worse. I have no idea what's causing it, I haven't used any new products (soap, shampoo, washing powder ( Read more... ) -
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I just can't win can I? A few hours after I got home from college yesterday I started throwing up and I felt ill and had an upset stomach all night . This morning I don't feel ill anymore (except for a loss of appetite which isn't neccessarily a bad thing) but now I have a horrible itchy bumpy red rash all over my neck and chest, and all my tatts ( Read more... ) -
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So I decided to come into college today, and this morning despite feeling a bit nervous (cos that's how I feel when I go anywhere these days), I was looking forward to seeing my friends and getting some work done. So I was actually in a good mood for the first time in ages. So I get to my mum's for my aunt to give me a ride, and my mum's friend ( Read more... ) -
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Well, this is just turning out to be the most fantastic week! (Can you smell the sarcasm?)
To start with, I feel like crap. My mood is no better, I'm still getting those flippin headaches, I'm exhausted but I can't sleep, and now I've started having weird epsiodes where I get all light headed and shaky (I'm starting to suspect I may be Hypoglycemic ( Read more... )