I am a headcase. I want to stop functioning. I want to stop hurting people. I want to stop burdening people. I want to stop making life harder than it has to be. I want to stop altogether. I can't get the lyric "fear is the heart of love" out of my head. It's probably because I feel like deep down somewhere I believe that. One of the biggest ( Read more... )

Gosh, what's a girl gotta do to get a little affection? Attn gentlemen cuddling is for lovers mmkay?

Some people just really get on my fucking nerves! Honestly. Wtf is wrong with me?
I don't even want to post stupid shit like this.

I can't get no satisfaction.

So today was pretty fun... I went to the beach and whatnot twas pretty chill tbhtbh. Could have been a bit more exciting imo but I guess I'm just a spaz. ( pictures )

OMFG!!!!! :| These people honestly wrack my fucking nerves! They want to boss me around and ask me to do this and that, but they can't do shit I ask. Not one fucking simple thing! and they wonder why I never want to go anywhere or do anything with them. Because they're all dickwads! and I hope they burn in hell. Stupid fat fucks.

So today...er yesterday I went out on a limb and chopped muhsewf some bangs.
eta: I meant 'top the bright lit city not 'bove lolol :|
( Won't chu think I'm pretty when I'm standin' 'bove teh bright lit city )

I no longer get what I want at the drop of a dime and that does not make me happy. Right now my life can only go one of two ways. I can go back to the way it was or go onward into (sigh) adulthood. Boo...you whore

I have no idea what I was going to write about. My mind just went completely blank.
Anywho I'm in a bit of a pickle, is it time for me to make some moves or to let moves be made?
It's kinda funny how everyday I think the previous day was the hardest one.

holding on to patience wearing thin

"catch 22" - the twenty-second of the guidelines used by military surgeons to "catch" those falsely claiming to be insane - is that an insane person should not believe or suspect that they are insane.
-Wikipedia nonsense

Is there a such thing as forcing someone to love you? Or maybe trying to force someone to care? I feel so damn low and pathetic. ( Read more... )

 Apparently all I am is a liar. It's amazing how you can give all you have to give a person and that's still not enough to gain their trust. I am so exhausted; mentally, emotionally, physically, exhausted. I feel like I'm giving all of me and in return I am only getting heartache. Icy, blue heartache. I don't understand why the words that come out ( Read more... )