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my social media 'diet'
on thanksgiving i started a social media break. before that i started checking less and less and started actively avoiding the news. it really started after the election. my anxiety was so high i felt like crying constantly and like the end of the wold was coming. I took out survival books from the library and started stocking up food ( Read more... ) -
burds
birds i've seen since we got suet cake/birdfeeder:- house sparrow
- song sparrow
- tufted titmouse
- blue jays
- grackles
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While, moving across my land,
brandishing themselves
like a burning branch,
advance the tallow-colored,
walleyed deer,
quiet as gondoliers,
[[ while I wait all night, for you,
in California,
watching the fox pick off my goldfish
from their sorry, golden state - ]]
and I am no longer
afraid of anything, save
the life that, here, awaits. -
why i dont like having long hair.
1: it's hot during the summer ( Read more... ) -
on our new place
getting real excited about moving next month. dan also got hired at a pretty good job that starts next month as well! so i'm stoked for that. him actually having spending money now means i'll have to pay less for groceries and other necessities he wasn't able to contribute with a 30 hour work week. so we can afford not only to move, but to upgrade ( Read more... ) -
on dreams
when you have something in your mind that's so mystical and perfect.. it's the world through a song, it's the world through a photo filter. it's the dream of a garden in a photo from a book. it's the fog and the memory and the photographs of things you can't remember. and to get that blurry, perfect dream of a vision out onto paper or paint is ever ( Read more... ) -
on where i'm really going.
too many dreams, unrealistic, wafting. none if it is real, none of it is true. most of it feels wrong, makes me have anxiety, makes me doubt myself. i can do so many things, true. we all can. but right now, i have to focus. have to work to make my own dream come true. i am me, my art is mine, i am doing what i'm doing and it's this one singular ( Read more... ) -
on living here
living in CT is kinda been sucky the last couple of years, lol. first we get hurricane'd, then we get hurricane'd again, we get snowed out of halloween 2 times in a row, then some little kids get shot, and then we get so much snow the freaking national guard has to dig us out. ridiculous. not surprised two of my friends just up and moved to ( Read more... ) -
foods guideline
ok, I think I found a diet/food lifestyle that works best for me, doesn't leave me hungry all the time, keeps my stomach from hurting (mostly), isnt crazy expensive and has nutrition, probiotics, and prevents uti's, etc.
-green tea and herbal tea only - caffeinated teas only 1x a day, rarely black tea - honey only additive
-small amounts of sugar - ( Read more... ) -
WELP that was 2012.
not too bad, really. i kept my 2 inadvertent resolutions - i finally stopped biting my nails enough to grow them out to a regular human female length (workable but not freakishly short), and i stayed at my job for a year, like i promised myself i would. i have yet to find another job that has decent pay and a decent commute - usually it's one or ( Read more... )