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[missingkitsune]

hey so long time no see....

i've been really down lately and not felt like posting much. and rp-ing has eaten the rest of my life.

so not that much has happened until yesterday. i called my dad, *not stepdad* and found out that one of his ex's had cancer, brain tumors and something else i don't remember. they only found out a few weeks ago, (but

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[lawless523]

*waves* It's good to hear from you.

[missingkitsune]

*waves back*

[seshats_prodigy]

RPing is like that, though...a black hole of fun that just sucks you in.

I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling out of sorts, and about your dad's ex. That's always hard...

I'll be thinking of you. ♥

[missingkitsune]

yeah it is.

i guess it's just part of the ups and downs of life.

[helliongoddess]

I'm grudgingly trusting your judgement on the meds thing... but that doesn't stop me from worrying!! And I know all too well what being off meds can do to your pain levels, and how increased pain can wear you down mentally and cause bad sleep, which in turn makes you hurt more... it can get into a downward spiral/vicious cycle kind of thing, so just be careful, ok? We need you and love you!!!!

The RP can be a timesuck, but it can also be a lovely escape. Enjoy it. Anything (other than heroin or other similarly self-destructive substances) that gets you motivated enough to get out of bed when you feel shitty is a good thing, IMHO. And any writing is better than no writing at all - and really, for me personally, I think the writing I've done on RP's has been very good for my writing, all in all. Enjoy it.

[missingkitsune]

i know and i do appreciate it.

yeah but it's a fun distraction.

[violets_r_blu]

Hey Bobbi,
:) I've been thinking about you, wondering how you're doing. I understand how you can get sick of taking meds, as I can relate, I know what you mean. Just be careful. Meds for pain and meds for other things, like BP are different storys, as i'm sure you know.
I was trying to feel better myself, when an old ailment got up and revisted me recently! Some fluid in my brain that's causing enourmous pain and blurred vision, so it's spinal tap time, soon. It sucks...I know. Hang in there, and write if you want to. At least rant to your freinds here on LJ, like me! Don't hold it all in.
It's great to see you!!
:)
*Feel better Hugs*

[missingkitsune]

i suppose i'm doing ok other than what i wrote.

LJ friends are the best.

[uruchan]

I feel your pain, totally. My drugs are working pretty good, but it sucks AND blows when they don't. I spend too much time alone, and when I get bored I either sleep or get bummed out. But I try to look on the bright side. The government considers bipolar people 'disabled', so I'm living off of social security benefits these days. It's so nice to know that I'm considered 'broken'. Here's my middle finger, US gov, and please, feel free to sign my next paycheck.

[missingkitsune]

yeah that's part of the reason i was able to get my social security. i had to challenge their decision and hire a lawyer to help me. in the hearing room i had a total break down. i think it was pretty much decided right there and then.

the benefits aren't the greatest but i'm able to more or less get by.

btw it's nice hearing from you, i've been a bit worried about you.

[uruchan]

I think my multiple hospitalizations helped me get my benefits. I'm doing much better, but I do get awfully lonely and don't know what to do on my time off.

[missingkitsune]

sorry to hear about the multiple hospital stays, i'm sure those were no fun at all.

i'm very glad to hear you're doing better, and i can totally sympathize with the lonely feelings.