i'm still alive

[missingkitsune]

hey so long time no see....

i've been really down lately and not felt like posting much. and rp-ing has eaten the rest of my life.

so not that much has happened until yesterday. i called my dad, *not stepdad* and found out that one of his ex's had cancer, brain tumors and something else i don't remember. they only found out a few weeks ago, (but

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[uruchan]

I feel your pain, totally. My drugs are working pretty good, but it sucks AND blows when they don't. I spend too much time alone, and when I get bored I either sleep or get bummed out. But I try to look on the bright side. The government considers bipolar people 'disabled', so I'm living off of social security benefits these days. It's so nice to know that I'm considered 'broken'. Here's my middle finger, US gov, and please, feel free to sign my next paycheck.

[missingkitsune]

yeah that's part of the reason i was able to get my social security. i had to challenge their decision and hire a lawyer to help me. in the hearing room i had a total break down. i think it was pretty much decided right there and then.

the benefits aren't the greatest but i'm able to more or less get by.

btw it's nice hearing from you, i've been a bit worried about you.

[uruchan]

I think my multiple hospitalizations helped me get my benefits. I'm doing much better, but I do get awfully lonely and don't know what to do on my time off.

[missingkitsune]

sorry to hear about the multiple hospital stays, i'm sure those were no fun at all.

i'm very glad to hear you're doing better, and i can totally sympathize with the lonely feelings.

[uruchan]

Yeah... but still, I haven't cried for a good long while, so I must be ok. Are you doing ok yourself?

[missingkitsune]

i'm okay i suppose.