I cry. A lot. I cry and I miss him and it's stupid. He just walked away from me like I meant nothing. I should be angry, not sad. ANGRY. He was supposed to love me. I guess that's why I'm trying so hard to love Ryan. He loves me and isn't afraid to show people he does. I'm trying to make it enough. I'm trying really hard. He just isn't A. He doesn' ( Read more... )

So I bought Travis' cd today. It borders on terrible. In fact, it made me angry. Why does he get to record something and release it and I haven't? I'm sure part of my dislike is jealousy of his opportunity but the album is just...ugh. If Prince forgot how to write a song and produce an album, then recorded it with lyrics about frustrating ( Read more... )

I miss writing in here. I always felt better when I jotted down my thoughts. I need to make sense of my life again. It seems like the chaos is always just a barely at bay.

I'm glad my old friend is coming home. I've missed her. you know who you are :)

James doesn't have a job. Again. I haven't gotten child support since the first week of December. I am so frustrated with this situation! I'm trying to figure out how to pay the bills by myself and that $300 is a big part of my bill money. What does he expect me to do? Saffron is his child, too. I mean, he petitioned for joint custody so he wouldn' ( Read more... )

I just told you that I love that you are always writing, creating, thinking. I feel like I need to step up my game. I stopped writing, stopped doing anything other than what was necessary for survival but you keep reminding me how crucial it is to create something bigger than ourselves. You say your job is "revolutionizing the planet" but you've ( Read more... )

(I am not heartbroken. I am not heartbroken. I am not heartbroken ( Read more... )

I harbor no delusions. I know the score. Whatever connection we have emotionally pales in comparison to the connection the two of you have physically. Love isn't enough to make it okay. Love doesn't make me feel less guilty for wanting to be with you even knowing the circumstances. It doesn't make me happy to be your girl on the side. It doesn't ( Read more... )

If anyone still has my picture from Lazer's Rear of the Year, will you please send it to me? I can't find it anywhere! It is the one of my ass in red lace.

hello friends. i forgot all about my lj. come see me on myspace. i'm msbreigh.

Kerry conceded. I'm leaving the country.