Recently, My grandmother figure in my life died, last week in fact. She was a very special person in my life. Generally, she was a female hunter s. thompson. She drank and smoked everyday. She had one leg and cursed. She was wonderful. I enjoyed sitting with her at her house and talking to her about everything. it was nice. I had to do alot of self ( Read more... )

Unhappy.

I was sitting on my couch and thinking about the past. I realized that my smoke out sessions with friends are some of the best times ive had. Everyone is so free. So willing to be themselves. I wish that they could happen again. That they would bring me close to the people that i care about. Unfortunatly, i've fucked up alot of things. For a while ( Read more... )

My neighbors are blasting michael jackson. I wish they would stop. I'd rather hear their shitty rap music. Moose is adjusting well to the new place. im forcing her to explore the place. Shes scared though, at least shes eating. Im happy about that. So. For fourth of july im going to go to disneyland to watch the fireworks. awesome. I cant get over ( Read more... )

I keep having this horrible reoccuring nightmare that elvis gets hurt. Like something seriously goes wrong in his life. Its starting to freak me out. I completly stopped thinking about the dude and then all the sudden i have a nightmare of him getting hurt? Weird. I dont know what it means, or why i'd have it. I tried calling him but his phone was ( Read more... )

Ah, tis being busy again. I love it. stressed but i loove it. The months of self pity and lonliness are far over. and a new skin has been shed. IT feels good. For months I was so lost within myself. wondering what i was going to do, how to do it. it was suffocating. Now, i have a game plan. im not out to help others as much, mainly because i have ( Read more... )

Everything is connected. I had a dream last night, it was a combination of my past, my present and my future. It was strange how everything was connected. But everything fit so well together. I saw people i had never seen before. it was strange. but everyone i'd ever met was there. and we all just talked. we talked about things we had already ( Read more... )

So much has been going on in my life. gosh i cant believe most of it. lets see, i havent written on here for about three months so i have so much to write about. So, I moved out about my apartment with holly for having a fallout. I'm really enjoying myself though. i have a lovely apartment, with tons of space. i totally needed it though. Living ( Read more... )

blah blah bullshit. Im moved into my new place, it feels nice but it doesn't quite feel like home. Imiss my cat, as lame as that is, i do. I can't wait to go back home and see her.. i noticed that its alot colder without her around.She truly is a space heater. anyway, i finish my paperwork for my job tomorrow, i can't wait. i can't wait to start ( Read more... )

Drama drama drama. Why cant you just get over it? We're not together. we haven't been for months.Get over it. Stop texting me. Stop calling me. Stop trying to figure out whats going on in my life through other people. Its stupid. You're so hostile towards me for no reason, i didn't do anything to you. You cheated on me. You kept dating me when you ( Read more... )