So I haven’t updated in a long time... And ALOT has changed.... I had met someone a while ago and never perused anything with this person because I was in relationship at the time... Well the relationship I was in really had ended a long time ago but I stayed because I felt comfortable... Any who that relationship ended and I was finally happy! I ( Read more... )

**FRUSTRATED**STRESSED**SAD**HAPPY**EXCITED**MAD**DREAMING**BROKENHEARTED**
**RELIANT**DREAMING**MONEY**LACKOFMONEY**BILLS**FREEDOM**LONELY**CONTENT**

I have so many feelings lately... I’m so BLAH but ok at the same time... I miss Ben but I don’t... I care about him but I don’t. I hate everything he has done and not done. I hate him for what he could ( Read more... )

Tonight I am having a rough night....*sigh*

Went to exit interview for my externship. I turned everything talked with the teacher etc. I got my grade for the externship which included my draws, journals, time, papers etc. I got another 4.0! So proud! I worked my ass off and it showed. Very Happy!

Im a little lonely tonight..*sigh*... Oh well.

Ok.. I FINISHED MY EXSTERN SHIP TODAY!! WOOHOO! I have been so tired and so stressed doing this. I worked my ass off and It’s just like Hallelujah! 120 hours, about 300 pokes of people etc etc. I got rave reviews from everyone I worked with and even got offered the perdeum(sp) spot, which I did apply for. Its an as needed basis but the first like 3 ( Read more... )

*tears*

So.. Life is really really tough at the moment. Ben and I have decided to part ways. I have been with him 5 years. Sense I was 16. Its a hard choice.. We are going to remain friends. Who know how that will work but oh well. He has a lot of issues to deal with that I can handle anymore. I have things I want to work on etc. So I will keep the ( Read more... )

SO I finally get to start my x-tern ship for 3 days and now im sick! I cant breath I didnt sleep a wink and I cant go in today. My head is pounding so f'ing bad. I sniffle and snort and cough and gag.I have to go to the dr and try not to puke. Man! Im so frustrated this is all I needed. *huff*

Ahh........Ack!..... Fuck.... God damn.... I love you... I hate you.... Sad... Glad.... Alone...Free...Mixed Emotions.  Feelings.. Pain...Happiness...ksafjilhdsfkjhaslkdjfhs... BLACH!!!!!!

Im so ready to bash heads together. Today ABSO_FUCKING_LUTLY SUCKED! FINALLY I was suppose to go in for my Externship BUT NO!  I got a call oh we still are dragging our damn feet so maybe tomorrow. So I sent off and Email to my placement instructor which I think made a good point:

Connie,

I originally went on on Wen of last week, (after my ( Read more... )