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Ok.. I FINISHED MY EXSTERN SHIP TODAY!! WOOHOO! I have been so tired and so stressed doing this. I worked my ass off and It’s just like Hallelujah! 120 hours, about 300 pokes of people etc etc. I got rave reviews from everyone I worked with and even got offered the perdeum(sp) spot, which I did apply for. Its an as needed basis but the first like 3 months are just about full time training and I’m sure Ill get quite a few hours so.. yay! But guess how much they pay?!?!?! Seattle wages the only place on the peninsula... about 15.20 starting to 20.60 and hr!!! and I will get about a 1.60ish more for being perdeum(sp)(sp) so I’m looking at making about 17.00-18 an hr!!! *excited* they are sure I got it just waiting stupid HR. I can’t wait to ACTUALLY work and earn money!
So it’s been almost 2 weeks sense Ben has been gone. I’m doing really well. I have had just a couple moments of sadness but you know I was with him for 5 years of my life and it’s amazing how well I am doing without him. Money issues of course. I talk to him on the phone and can get snippy with him cuz I’m just so irritated that I was put in this position by him and hold allot of resentment towards him... to be expected I guess. Sooo I have decided I’m spending all my time on me. Its time to take care of me and I like that thought. To everyone who messaged me the 1st time about Ben leaving I thank you ALL very much, it was too hard to write back in that time about things but now I’m great! So I wanted to thank you for being so kind and loving. It really means alot!!!!!
I went to a new bar with some friends the other night and had a BLAST!!! I was the D.D. We went to a bar called Maccos and it was like a hip/hop R&B, rock bar that had black lights and dancing. Now Im not a dancer and thought I would hate it. I LOVED IT! soo much fun!! I got my groove thing on and it was great. Actually have some funny stories to tell. We met a cowboy who ended up grinding up on my friend Amy and it was all good till he started giving her a lap dance when we leaned on the stage.. He use to be a male stripper he told us. So he’s grinding on her doing the male dancer thing and I start hysterically laughing. I couldn’t help it! It was too funny and I she was trying to get me to rescue her so I did. Then late on some black guy we had met after me telling him I cant really dance, danced me up against a speaker and started to grind me and once again I'm hysterically laughing and cow boy comes up and starts doing it to me too. Then black dude starts like fake humping me!!! I freak out laughing and my friends rescued me.. ha ha good times.. I enjoyed it alot. I plan to go back and celebrate my end of externship and being single with my pals!
Goals I am saving up and losing wait and then going on a cruise with my pals. I can’t wait! I’m going to print pictures of my goals to keep me motivated. That’s an update for you!
I want to yell at the parents up stairs for letting their FUCKING OFF SPRING keep swinging their door into the wall over and over and over. BANG BANG BAN. DONT BREED IF YOUR GOING TO LET YOUR CHILDREN RUN WILD AND BE BRATTS! That is all on that...