i'm at laurins celebrating halloween. i like how i'm like the only one not trashed yet and i ran away to play on the computer. fuck itttt! i just want friends who realize i'm gone when i walk out of the room.

so the mom thing went kind of well. we went out to lunch in chinatown (i knew she'd hate it but i was fucking craving lo mein). she complained about it being stuffy. anyway so then we dick around for a little in town. she asked me what a normal day was like for me so i said alright and we went to old navy, buffalo exchange, south street and by the ( Read more... )

my mom's coming down tomorrow. its going to be pretty interesting. last night i went out just to walk around and clear my fucking head with abby. she says tomorrow night if my mom doesn't dick around too long here she's forcing me to go out and enjoy myself. apparently her and rob have been getting pretty serious and rob's got this friend he's ( Read more... )

long phone call with my mom last night. i told her about my grades and shit but i told her not to worry - that it wasn't dad's fault or lack of ignitative to want to actually BE in my life. shes still worried but thats what moms do i guess. she suggested i get away and i brought up the lack of money thing. she said she's going to call me back ( Read more... )

if you live in the philly area, my favorite sundays are spent at the art museum =]] i usually skimp out and don't even pay anything. today i gave $5 that i should have kept for a pack of cigarettes but i felt giving and appreciated that i could spend the day with becca and have it be our little cheap date =] always a good friend when i need one. 

i just found out  my english composition grade is a 54%. fucking peachy and i was tryign so hard to do well. my mom was worried about letting me live down here with my crack addict dad but i told her that wouldn't affect my grades. well i didn't let it. i got myself into my own trouble. i'm the one with the fake id and the constant craving to get ( Read more... )

trashsedd! i went the fuck out wiht lynzy and tiff and we got so shitfaced it was beautiful. there was this cute boy down the road from us at this one bar on south street and i was like "hey baby" we ended up going into condom kingdom. i asked him what kind of vibrator he used and he said if he were gay/me he would get this one adn pointed to this ( Read more... )

my sister felt it necessary to call me this morning nad let me know my mom let her get a parakeet. well isn't htat just fucking sweet. i mean i really don't care. i acutally am kind of terrified of birds but i'm over it. i just know i won't be there a lot to visit anyway. she's pretty excited about it. she's also 7 years old. soo i don't even know ( Read more... )

hm so i was on the phone with steve last night. this is erally putting a huge pull on our phone bills and i know i shouldn't be talkign to him so much on the phone. that's what aim is for. that's why he bought me that stupid webcam four motnhs ago that i still haven't used. and then tonight he called and he was like i miss you i wihs i were home i ( Read more... )

i basically feel like a huge dumbass. i never thought i'd come back to blogging after my xanga (which i read for the first time in 3 years last night and cried my eyes out alone). but guess what?? here i am. no turning back i guess. i just, now that most of my friends are gone, really don't feel like i can relate to anyone around here. it's all ( Read more... )