if you really wanted me out of my life, you wouldn't have asked lynzy to see me yesterday. i feel so betrayed by my best friend and my ex boyfriend. of course i had told lynz everything. everything. and i was like yeah but other than that, i've been good and i think i will end up getting better with you around. and she was like yeah well i'm glad ( Read more... )

blah blah blah. lynzy called my house today. lynzy was one of my friends who when i went ot move out with steve, she got all pissedoff .s h weas like the last person to know because i didn't want to hurt her. so i avoivded ever telling her and it only ended terribley. but so she calls. and she was like i want to hang out. now. and i said i couldn't ( Read more... )

my mom is home now from her little excapade with her boyfirend so guess where i am.WHO! may i add, totally yelled at me when i told him in DETAIL (because he asked) about why i fucked my life up. he was like. you basiclly fail at life. i alreayd knnow this. he said that we need to work together on getting me back togheter. when i was out the other ( Read more... )

Ugh so im in the library right now and the lady at the desk asked me today why I come in here all the time she was like I see you a lot now, what are you up to? I told her to mind her own business and that I was going through family problems so we didn’t have an internet anymore. She told me that I shouldnt be allowed to use the computers without ( Read more... )

i havent even uated in forever. basically me and steve borke up biiig time i t was like .. terrible. i wound up in the hostpal for a few days because i tried to kill myself. i guess he called 911 but the next thing i knew my dad had flown out here and was by my bed. steve wrote this terrible like.. it's over for good break up letter and left me to ( Read more... )

its been too long and ihate my life.
i'm sure i'll have time ot explain later this week but im ustj tryng to get any help taht i can.
:'^(

i burnt the turkey with steve today. i feel like such a shitty reason to look forwadr to a future with someone. like, i can't even cuook him meals and i expect him to be my boyfriend again? i knwo we loves each otha, but i don't think that always matters... i want to prove to him that i can be a fantastic woman - in public, in bed, at the work ( Read more... )

i'm not going back to pennsylvania.
well.
i am, but i'm not.
basically once i told my parents that i aws leaving my mom gave me this whoel speal about how this is my life and what not and that i don't want to let it go to waste on a boy and what about my classes and all this blullshit that if i heard another second of i was going to die. my dad ( Read more... )

i sat here and backspaced about four thousand times. i want to go, i don't. you know what? i have to do whats best for me. my dad's dicked me over pretty badly in the last year with shit. like depeding basically upon myself. now it's his turn to be alone like i've felt. i don't know how i'm going to get this money. i'll probably just ask my mom. ( Read more... )

teddy's fucking going out to north dakota for thanksgiving to hang with steve. hes like "girl you gotta go." i don't know if that would prove anythiign whatsoever. i think i'm just going to get depressed and want to fucking scream =[ i mean, even if i get some money to get a plane ticket out to steves, i don't think its going to prove anything or ( Read more... )