tonight is ians solstice party. i guess im gonna try to go, im not sure though. drew gets off work here pretty soon, but hes just really tired and i think he wants to go to bed. ive been at his house for like, the last week, and seeing him everyday is nice, just maybe excessive. i get all weird lately, and just suddenly go numb. this leads to him ( Read more... )

life is going really well right now. i get my paycheck tomorrow, going to seattle for neros's birthday party, drew is being amazing, as he has been lately. work is...work. for the most part, im stoked to be me ( Read more... )

so yeah. word. i dont really like writing in this journal too often, but it beats writing on paper sometimes. i feel like im kinda starting to move on with my life. im hopefully going to be moving up to seattle sometime soon. i need to get the fuck out of oly. its driving me nuts. everywhere i look i see some horrible memory that i once found ( Read more... )

so me and lauren are sitting in seattle and she is drunk,and im not. yeah....drew is a dick. i cant wait to grow out of all of this mellow dramatic bullshit. im over it

i finally got a job. ive only needed one for like, a year. it feels good to be employed, but its a new resturant, so im one of four people who work there. that means that i work everyday...its kinda like culture shock. going from doing nothing all day to working. but its nice, i really cant complain. as long as i get a paycheck in the mail, then i ( Read more... )

yeah...drew actually dumped me! hot shit huh? im a reject. oh well. im pissed at lauren, cause she sucks. no matter how often people tell me that lauren is selfish and doesnt care about anyone, i dont listen. but last night just kidna sucked. besides being dumped, and heartbroken, i was drunk as SHIT. and at my friend sorens house. so yeah... ( Read more... )

i dont know why i do the things that i do. i fucking called this guy nick, told him i thought that he was hot, and then asked him to hang out with me. i did this because of one little frustration that i was having with drew. well....one frustration that linked to other ones, but it was just that one that set me off this time. then, i see drew at ( Read more... )

so last night i hung out with a bunch of guys that i havent seen for a while, and it was completely gratifying. sorens house is always a bunch of fun to hang out at, but its nice just being around decent guys. too often guys only want to get ass, so its a nice change ( Read more... )

im so emo that i cant stand myself right now. or maybe im just hormonal. lately ive noticed that im not sure if i want a boyfriend or not, id just like someone to talk to.drew is a great guy, and i love being with him, but im really tired of being toyed with. it wouldnt be so bad if we had a steady, consistant relationship, but for the past 6 ( Read more... )