and I miss Nick a lot. Still.

what the fuck happened?

Dear Colin ( Read more... )

Dear Colin,

If you ever want to call me, that'd be great. I don't bite.

Love,
Beth

im sad. i cant help it. everything has been reminding me of him. i dont know how to handle it ( Read more... )

well i certainly do always fall into the same patterns ( Read more... )

do i want the control or not?

i love being the one with the power--its great. but why cant i get away from the relationship where he has the power? he is exactly the type ive always dreamed of, but it goes against all my principles merely because im so eager and hes in control. fuck that.

im so addicted.

I need him out of my life. He messes with me. And I'm beginning to realize that he's not necessarily being shady, I'm just not strong enough to let it be the way it needs to be.

I've got to start weening myself off. That or manning up and talking about things. Or finding a new distraction.

well the birthday girl is basically REQUIRED to cry, right?

honey, i'm home!

my apartment is so great.

I went to Vegas with my dad on Thursday. It was the annual international convention put on my the American Society of Mechanical Engineers (ASME). My dad has been a part of this organization for about 25 years now and they always have this conference in the month of September. I remember this bc when I was little, the conference often fell on ( Read more... )