from the mouth of a holier than thou, passive-aggressive child:

Sep 28, 2004 13:22

Let me tell you something about the last few weeks. A couple weeks ago I ended a four-year-long relationship with the person who is quite likely the love of my life, because ultimately, love is rarely ever enough, and more often than not it gets twisted and marred in codependency and resentment. So rather than watch it slowly die and turn into ( Read more... )

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Hurt Suck! virginiawest September 28 2004, 12:41:38 UTC
WOW, Umm..WOW!!!

but other then that, sorry to here you broke up with him sweetie... I hope you find exactly what you are looking for!

Loves & Hugs!!!

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Re: Hurt Suck! mercurialdawn September 28 2004, 14:21:16 UTC
thanks doll. I'm sure I will. :-)

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salveregina September 28 2004, 17:37:50 UTC
you know i know exactly what you're talking about on the lack of loyalty during break ups. empathy rarely ever gets passed out evenly when it should. most people aren't that mature. my feelings about it: fuck 'em. you know my life is great without the people i expelled from my life and i'm sure your life will be great without her. yeah it takes a little time to adjust to the loss but after a month or so you won't even miss her. more power to you for standing up and putting an end to some bullshit.

regarding the break up, you need to do what's right for you. don't think that because he's my cousin i'm going to ostracize you for doing what you need to do for yourself. and know that i'm here for you just as much as for my family. call a bitch if you need to. :)

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mercurialdawn September 28 2004, 20:59:03 UTC
i was actually thinking about calling you just to say hi earlier this week...

This weekend is kinda booked but how's next weekend looking for ya? I can bring over some art supplies like we've been planning...

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salveregina September 29 2004, 14:07:23 UTC
ugh, this always happens whenever i'm doing a show! but the good thing is that rehearsals shouldn't be so bad for me on the weekends, so i'm pretty sure we can set it up. call me since i've lost your number in my old phone and since you're never online.

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sorry zoo101 September 28 2004, 19:23:11 UTC
sorry to hear about the break-up. in the remotest chance that you need somebody to talk to, email me.

you are strong, you will survive.

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Re: sorry mercurialdawn September 28 2004, 21:00:53 UTC
thanks dude... and the same goes on my end.

it's funny, this lj thing.

I don't even really know you, but when you disappeared I got kinda worried. I'm glad you're back.

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Re: sorry zoo101 September 28 2004, 21:29:41 UTC
its been rough. for whatever reason, im still holding on.

keep shining.

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tinkerbella24 September 28 2004, 23:33:18 UTC
fuck that noise!! whoa. keeping your boundaries straight like that is excellent.focusing on mourning not so much what was lost,but what COULD have been (in our fantasy minds) is what one needs to do in the end of long term relationships.

figure out the new identity. shit. i know i wrote many a song over it.

keep strong like it seems you are. focus on the healing.

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that's right, my blessing rizalboy September 29 2004, 01:28:08 UTC
I've always thought about you for this, Reigna. From a distance, I admired you for doing what you needed to do and had the strength not to deal with anyone's flack for shit. Though it hurts more than anything, she needs to do what is right for her. And I got some growing up to do. The only things that overshadow my fear of what the future portends and my sense of loss here is my belief in her, this decision and us as friends. I may be weak and act otherwise; I trust that this is the right thing for us as people, as friends and more than just a couple.

No one speaks on "my behalf". Though both of us could use our friends' love and support right now, I expect no bullshit. My pain is mine and my love for her will not be trounced upon by jibber jabber stupid shit. Respect it or fuck off. That's all.

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Erm. I tried to keep it short but, alas.... kahnighit September 29 2004, 06:04:18 UTC
A word or a thousand here... I’m reluctant to say anything because of the adage that suggests advice is just a form of selfish nostalgia. However I dive in headlong anyway ( ... )

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