Today was a good day! I hung out with Teresa pretty much all day. I met the family I am gonna be working with and they are so great. The boys suffer from a disease called ...... what this means is their protien levels are all messed up. If they get too much they suffer brain damage. Once the damage is done they never get it back. Because of this ( Read more... )

I wish I was strong enough to just pack my shit and leave. I wish I had the guts!

Well today was the greatest day ever! I SAW MY MOMMY! I missed her so much. I walked in the door and we just looked at each other and cried and she hugged me. It was the best feeling in the world. I can't describe how great it was to see her. I called her last night when I was all drunk and upset. I call my sister and my dad too. It was so great to ( Read more... )

Well life as usual has been pretty shitty. I got a ticket yesterday and its gonna cost me like $300 to get it taken care of. I can't drive my car until I do. I did get a job tho :) I am going to be working with 2 special needs boys that are 5 years old. They need to be fed through a tube and require a lot of attention but I think it will be a GREAT ( Read more... )

What do you do when you are with someone that you thought you loved? What do you do when you realize you made the biggest mistake of your life by turning down the only person you ever cared about? I just don't know what to do anymore...you are the only person that can make not only me smile but my heart smile...I'm sorry for the pain ive caused you

Thought this would get better ( Read more... )

What do I have to do ( Read more... )

I am so sick of christmas. I'm sick of everyone talking about presents and family. Fuck Christmas and Fuck family!

I got the most wonderful e-mail today. It was from someone who has been looking at my journal online. It was from a girl I graduated with and I would like to know who it is. She said that she has been so jealous of me and that I should be happy with who I am because she said she would give anything to be in my shoes with my problems. She told me ( Read more... )

Well things are finally getting better. Yesterday was a great day. I hun out with Teresa and Melissa all day. We had the best time. I got my job back at pac sun too! I went in there to get my check and talked to my manager and explained my situation about being poor and I didnt have gas to come in for those 2 days and I promised I would be able to ( Read more... )