I was talking to a friend today, who is dating this guy. He's amazing to her, probably one of the best things that could've ever happened to her, really cares about her and would do ANYTHING for her. She is actually considering breaking up with him to pursue this other guy, who smokes weed all the time and has attempted to be with her two other ( Read more... )

My mamaw died on Wednesday May 6. We buried her today and had her wake last night...it's funny because I haven't cried at all since she died. I cried beforehand cuz I knew it was coming. I saw her the night before she died...and I know she's better off. After they reopened her casket for our final look...I didn't know if I'd break down or not ( Read more... )

I get really really tired of the fact that I have no chance of ever gaining weight like I want to. I'm super upset about it, I feel completely unattractive and I'm just over it. I am depressed at least once in the week due to the fact that I'm so unhappy with my body I can't stand it. I look in the mirror and I continually get upset. I maintain ( Read more... )

I think I've finally realized my problem, and I'm ready to face it. I'm unhappy because I'm not getting what I need from all this. I need a true romantic, I need somebody who wants to bring me flowers randomly and somebody who is sweet to me 3/4 of the time. I need somebody who would spend every second with me if it was possible. If I don't have ( Read more... )

I know I haven't posted in forever. I just got kinda bored with expressing how I felt inside, but I think maybe if I do this again, i won't have so many problems trying to sleep anymore. Lately I've been happy...just amazingly happy because I've realized that I can be excessively hard on myself and for no real reason. If I get stressed out I just ( Read more... )

I'm so down right now...I just don't care anymore. Once I wanted things to work out in my life...but right now I just think I don't deserve happiness nor have I ever. What have I done to deserve anything? Nothing. Everything's always come way to easy for me and I don't deserve any of it. I just want simple things and then I don't know what I want ( Read more... )

Anymore I don't have time for anything. I wish I could just stop for a minute and relax. I mean not every minute of my life is supremely hectic...it's just...I wish I didn't have SO many commitments. I am the one who made out my schedule for a full courseload. No advisor would've told me it was okay...but I like to play the game with my own rules. ( Read more... )

I'm so sick and tired of a certain person continuing to try and make his presence known in someone's life that is very close to me. I'm sick of these little reciprocated threats that are meaningless just because you had your chance and screwed up. It's not her fault. If you had the sense that God gave an ant you'd understand that. YOU were the ( Read more... )

I'm just really sad tonight...there's no other way to put it. There's nothing wrong...well actually yea there is a lil bit. I'm beginning to realize how far I've come from where I want/need to be with God. I just want so much to be absolutely engulfed in the fire and give my life totally over and stop living for myself...but it's like I do for ( Read more... )

Thank God I'm finished with classes. I was so lazy this semester...I'm just to the point that I don't care. I hate school so bad but I know I will probably end up going to graduate school after wise for psychology and/or art and then going to school for massage therapy for two years. Everything I want to do seems so far out of reach. Sometimes ( Read more... )