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[megalith]

I am perfectly fine being a fucking weirdo. I have been a fucking weirdo my entire life. When I went out places (or stayed in places), I was the person people looked at, pointed at, and said, "Look-- a fucking weirdo!" These people (for the most part) are what I liked to call: "boring." The same people, years later, might be a lot more

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[melange_fiesta]

Can I be totally honest here? I really really liked this post. And I hope nobody has a problem with it, because I think that would be rather silly.

I wish I knew where my fucking weirdo self went. I think it's still in there somewhere. I just have to stop trying to obliterate it in the pursuit of being normal. Or find some in-between. Or... I don't know. Something that's not where I am right now, at the very least.

[melange_fiesta]

Also, why is this entry being viewed as insensitive? I mean, I know sometimes people naturally change/mellow. But what of those who don't? Because many do not. What of them?

[megalith]

No one said it was insensitive or complained about it, but I was concerned that people on here might think it was meant about them, and it isn't specifically about anyone, so I just wanted that to be made clear. I know when I post things like this, for instance Nicole often thinks I'm writing about her, which is absolutely NOT TRUE. It's also not an attack on any kind of person, although it could be taken that way, it's moreso an attack on a set of ideas that I think people start trying to adhere to when they reach our age. It came out of a lot of things I was thinking about and feeling and not one specific event or person, but with the internet you always have to consider that things like tone can't be so easily or smoothly conveyed

[janus]

I wage war upon the ordinary. Not on simple, pleasant and universal things, which are different and completely extraordinary, but on this hopelessly vile acquiescence to the laws that govern people without any fire-- on the apathy of people when it comes to their own lives-- on the listless surrender to goals and ideals that do nothing for them but feed the abominable cycle of unhappiness and mediocrity that the passionless want us to sink into along with them.
Fuckin' eh! I really think we share this driving principle. I see the ordinary things about the average person as a little boring, which is a kind of wrongness about the world, because there are very few things that benefit from stagnation. But I think maybe what's more important about their wrongness is that the things that the average person does/says/thinks, while not inherently bad, could easily be bad without most people noticing. They get by on the simple merit that everyone else does/says/thinks them

[megalith]

Thanks

[poisonbatcandy]

I really agree with this in a lot of ways, and I love your strong conviction. Sometimes I feel so crushed and saddened by people's closed mindedness and insensitivity, it makes it so hard to be fully comfortable with myself. Having people bully and badger you about things you do really tends to wear you down. I used to be a lot more rebellious in the way I dressed and cut/dyed my hair but I've toned it down considerably to deflect some of the negative attention. it's sad how people misinterpret and judge people's motivations in their life. I'm still very much myself, but I feel there are a lot of times I am forced to hide it for my own protection. For example the way I dress now is to make life easy for me at school- I despise it when people hit on me, especially fetishy weirdos or crazies (which happened a lot when I dressed to the nines like a gothic cupcake), and I want to avoid problems with professors making assumptions about me

[megalith]

I feel very similarly. I hate the way people automatically tag you as this or that stereotype depending on what you wear (or are interested in-- although clothing is more common since it's so visible). I'm sure I'm not completely innocent of it myself, but at least I try