11.17.02

i used to believe that i was an incredible person. i guess it’s time to deal with reality.

yes, i am obsessed with myself. if anyone was being honest, they would admit this too.

fuck

you.

“3.3.03

i don’t know why i am so slow to heal. so slow to forget. so slow to move forward. i’ve always been that way. i allow myself to care so deeply that i can also be deeply wounded. i don’t think about you every day. or wonder what you are doing. but i do wonder if you ever think about me. or remember what we had. or even remember that i exist ( Read more... )

i’ve spent hours and hours working to fix broken links, find missing images and re-writing unrecognizable text. when it’s all finished, i’ll let people in. it’s not the same as what it was back then. i read some of the words and wonder who wrote them. and others, i can still remember the exact moment the words flowed through my fingers. i’ve ( Read more... )

i’m going through old blogs and pages, making sure the links work, the images visualize…

“2.17.03

i have an obsession with death. and i have for as long as i can remember. i live in constant fear that every phone call will bring the news. every car ride will end in a crumpled, bloodied mess. i dream about people dying. i watch them drown and cannot ( Read more... )

have you ever felt like everything you say goes unheard? the words you type are sent to a blank address?

you send yourself emails to ensure your account is actually working. call your phone to confirm it will ring.

wonder if anyone remembers you are out there.

and would notice if you weren't.

yes, this an editted version of my thoughts. what did you expect?

yes, i am an editted version of myself. what did you expect?

awake again. too late to intentionally stay awake, too early to give up on sleep all together ( Read more... )

i have been working for hours and hours and hours. but not on related to my job. i'm working to resurrect my personal website. making new pages of recent photos, travels and life events. also fixing old pages with corrupted links and missing pics. this effort will certainly take quite a bit longer, but when i'm done, i will let you know. new space ( Read more... )