i'm done.

i know that i can't really do anything about anything anyways.

i don't always have to get what i want. in fact, looking back i'm really thankful i haven't always gotten what i've wanted.

maybe a year from now i'll be thankful that things are happening the way they are.

but right now, i just want to kick the crap out of something i'm ( Read more... )

eh... i think he's just really lost right now. he just looks so darn lost.

its almost comical. like, watching a fish out of water flail around trying to figure out what the hell happened to him and why his life isn't the perfect aquarium it was 10 seconds ago

i don't know.

he knows all it would take is him getting up, coming over, pushing me up ( Read more... )

 Katebabyjohnson [10:55 PM]:  i guess the guys i date will probably just keep getting better, and i'll keep falling harder, and i'll keep getting hurt worse until i finally find the love of my life and i will fall so hard i'll never be able to get up and walk away from it, and it will hurt more than anything has ever hurt, and will feel better than ( Read more... )

a few weeks ago I was describing some of the many ways I was hurt by James while we were dating and after we were dating. i told jeremy i'm often very hesitant with him because i'm afraid he'll hurt me in the same way ( Read more... )

back from the beach house. running laundry. leaving for water ski camp. it feels like i'm never home. but i love it. lots of time with really good friends. a little stressful though. i'll write again when i get home on the 15th.

i've never kissed someone for so long that my lips became numb.

i've never had that much fun.

now i feel guilty.

crap.

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i said i love you to him yesterday. i didn't mean to. i totally just slipped. like, you know how when you end a conversation on the phone with your best friends you tend to say i love you? well i say i love you to so many people in my life. i'm really big on saying it. so yesterday, when i was leaving newport beach where all the highschoolers from ( Read more... )

i bought us tim mcgraw tickets. the tickets are for the night of our one month anniversary. he has no clue. i'll blindfold him as we drive down there if he doesn't figure it out before that day. i am so stoked. he's going to flip.

my boyfriend is so hot and so sweet. he treats me like an absolute princess

so most of you know that it took me forever and a day to get over james. i have no freakin idea why. i guess i just didn't believe there could be anything out there better. now, looking back on how shitty he treated me and how crap that relationship was, i wonder how i ( Read more... )