so im no longer in school. i dont want to go through all of the greuling details, but its whats right for me right now ( Read more... )

im  a little disgusted by my life.
i think its a little empty.
every time i try to make friends, im always the second choice, if that.
im okay, im there if you need me, but only if you have to.
i dont know what it is about me that pushes people away.
i have such a positive attitude when im really trying, which i do.
i try so hard.
the past 5 months ( Read more... )

I don't know why I am having such a hard time. I have been through way worse. I'm just not happy. I'm satisfied. And for me, that's a success. But I think Im at the point now where that just isnt enough. My life is lacking in so many places. Im not happy with the way that I look, I have yet to have any contact of any kind with a guy sice I have ( Read more... )

i have the shittiest friends
one who holds a grudge over something i should be mad at her for,
one who acts like im nothing and lies to me
and a few who basically ignore me

just wonderful

people need to grooooow up and get tougher skin
for fuck sakes

the stuff written from before
is super super old
so dont judge me by it haha cause yea, its from like 4 yrs ago
kcool

 dont tell me how im supposed to act because of my past 
im pretty sure i can get by making decisions of my own
you have no right to judge, 
all you have to do is look in the mirror, and youre no better 
bottom line being, i think highly of myself now 
so if you even doubt for a second that ill make it 
you couldnt be more than wrong

even just your eyes are accusing ( Read more... )

lets move on, but watch your step
not to fall this time
they say theres always tomorrow
but with you, all the days
morph together into one
like there'll never be a new day
a new smile, a new you...

everytime i revisit the past;
a quiver of my lip
a tear down my cheek
a piece of my heart

i hate the way you smile
because its only for a while, and only when i ( Read more... )

as a fool in your eyes ( Read more... )

dont worry about me
dont bother wasting time
ill get by on my own
ill keep my dreams of wanting more
than sympathy to myself.
im tired of ayou asking if im okay
when you know im not

i shouldnt need to be afraid when you walk into the room
i shouldnt be afraid to cry ,
because thats weakness in your eyes
i shouldnt want to dissappear
whenever i hear ( Read more... )