when marbles are fleeting pearls
kept in my frayed pouch
such treasure is burden
to lose made me soar
such treasure must be preserved
to lose is my end

While it's great when my mom have a rather brief(less than two months) of remission period after being admitted to private clinic for 3 weeks in private rehab clinic. It generally sucks when she spiraling down again to mixed periods. Going back to beers and refusing to see her psychiatrist is such a headache. It irks me, when she talks about my ( Read more... )

Mixed episode sucks too.
Oh how I longed for long period of remission... will it happened?

Rapid cycling sucks!

Saphris is awesome, it get rid of psychosis in quite a short time(1-2days). So relieved that finally this drug is available in my country. While this quite peaceful periods is such a nice thing to have after weeks of terror, I have to be realistic that this too shall pass. To be exact, there's no cure for bipolar, so the manic will come again, but ( Read more... )

I hope things will not gonna escalate to scarier situation...

[When bamboo stick have fiery ]


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I would be lying if I said that facing someone who having hypomanic induced rage is easy, specially if the so called episode also fueled by alcoholic drink.

this too shall pass eh?

I'm literally petrified. Facing someone who in the hypo-manic state of mind kinda terrifiying, specially if the hypo-manic is equal being irritable, aggressive and could harm other people(which is me). Shit, I have to prepare for the worse and be smart....

Emergency kits(just incase when shit happened)
- 3 portable harddrive
- laptop (adaptor and mouse too)
- car key
- glasses
- wallet
- some basic clothing, underwear and towel
- mobile and charger
- dog food(not for me tho), dog harness
- my camera
- my recipe scribbles

Hopefully I'm just being paranoid, coz leaving my internet access is terribly