This past year has been a complete fucking hellscape and every single thing that's happened has been a complete and total fucking disaster.

I don't understand why I have to keep going through this shit. Hopes go up only to be crushed. One good thing happens and 50 awful things follow.

Tired of it. Tired of life.

Breathe, cold, another bad dream
Got mud on my face but I can't get clean
Feel, hope, but I rip at the seams
If I can't get you away from me
Taking showers every hour and I choke on steam
Writing on the mirrors and the space between
All so tall, it broke the fourth wall
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Summer time and the wind is blowing outside
In lower Chelsea and I don't know
What I'm doing in this city
The sun is always in my eyes
It crashes through the windows
And I'm sleeping on the couch
When I came to visit you
That's when I knew I could never
Have you

I knew that before you did
Still I'm the one who's stupid
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I am smart.
I am beautiful.
I am awesome.
I am hilarious.
I am fun.
I am caring.
I am compassionate.
I am thoughtful.
I am successful.
I am loyal.
I am brave. I am fearless.

I'm a dreamer.
I'm a lover.
I'm a survivor.

I'm the total fucking package.

And someday, I will be enough.

I'm hopeful.
I'm patient.
I'm empathetic.

I can do this.

I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair...

I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.

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and this should be obvious, but it bears repeating:

I will always, always, always have to go through this shit alone.

It's just me. Only me. Only ever me.

I'm the only one I've got, and I'm the only one I'll ever have.

Forever alone.

Book it.

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