I am dating him. Yesterday I stopped in and visited him in his shop. He peeled a clementine for me and handed me the sections. It was very, very sweet. He comes and sits with me outside and talks to me. He is so….sweet. He’s also shy and a bit insecure - no that’s not the right word. He knows who he is and he’s not trying to be anyone else, but he ( Read more... )

So I got some ( Read more... )

I’m very content these days. I am back in therapy after an unscheduled hiccup in my insurance. I love where I live. I love my job. I love my dog and my friends. I even think I’m pretty awesome. The only thing missing ( Read more... )

I had a very nice holiday weekend. I was surrounded by friends every day. Really pretty nonstop. The weather was beautiful, I did lots of things. I drank on Friday and Sunday, but didn't feel bad the next days. Last night I went to bed at a reasonable hour, I didn't drink, I did everything right, but this morning I woke up with 1000 pounds pressing ( Read more... )

I’m fine. I really am, though I do feel a little weepy. What is there to cry about? I was hopeful. I was so excited to be treated well and to be…wanted. Ach that hurts ( Read more... )

Dear Boy that I like ( Read more... )

I think I’m having a romance. I mean, I think I might be dating someone. I haven’t been writing about it because it’s so enjoyable and easy going, but I think I need to be careful and journaling is so helpful to my thought process so here goes ( Read more... )

There was a time in my life when I was living for the first time by myself. I remember being shocked at how I interacted differently with everything in the world. The air, the energy, the light. Everything was different. It seemed so soft and so alive. It seemed like I was connected to the universe in a way that had never occurred to me before. I ( Read more... )

Did you know that I used to play the piano? I was pretty good at it. I juried in college and won - if that's what you call it. They rank you and I got an A+. My fingers could fly. Of course there were people my age who were vastly more talented than I, but I never had the opportunity to meet any in my very small universe. It made me feel ( Read more... )

I am in trouble. I think I might have suffered alcohol poisoning…. again. I didn’t drink very much at all, but my body is fucked. I started vomiting. I passed out on the toilet in the middle of it. I got up hours later and stumbled to bed and threw up a couple more times, unable to even lift my body up. I only had 2-3 drinks, but I have been trying ( Read more... )