well my life has been filled with ups and downs. i was diagnosed with somehting called cyclic vomiting syndrome which causes me to get sick every 3-4 months for about 2 weeks. and i dont mean a headache or flu. i mean non stop puking and pain in my tumm tumm and all i can do is sit in the tub, no eat, cant sleep cuz it hurts so bad. but i got ( Read more... )

joel has his boxers tucked into his sweatshirt & he is a true true gangster. it looks hot too. he's a real og gangsta. bunny sniffs joel's shorts all the time.. joel saw him sniffin them. hahahahaah bunny is moving to florida because he thought about it in his head. haha

i havent wrote in here in a while... but things are goin good.... im sick so i lost a lil weight oh well hopefully i dont lose my job again... me & joel are doin really good :) & um thats bout it my bro wont be home for another 6months :(

since when did guys start smelling like french whores.. & sitting so far up in there seats? i wonder.

blah, i just got over being really sick.. and today im nauseous & i threw up in the kitchen yucky... wtf is wrong w/ me, i dont wanna be sick no more.

sooo this weekend wasnt to bad.. last weekend was fun as hell.. but friday i ended up stayin at joels chillin online & whatever.. then he came home pretty early & we watched dawn of the dead.. the original one lol.. weird. sat night i went over dougs house cuz i was so bored just sittin at joels by myself.. then joel called & said he was across the ( Read more... )

today joel & i woke up butt ass eearly so he could go to court haha.. hes got a curfew!! just like a lil kid haha renae, i know ur gonna think its funny!.. anyways i dont want to go to work blah! oh well. tomorrow were goin to get our hurrs did.. work it homie!! im excited. haha but joels got a curfew hahahhahahhahahaahahhahaahhaha at midnight ( Read more... )

the past week has been pretty good.. ive just been stayin at his house.. hes sicky so im lonely tonight lol. i left my work badge there so tomorrow at work is going to suck.. i hate not having my badge at work. i also found out today that i work only til 2 on thanksgiving so i can still go w/ joel to his uncles for dinner yay. im gonna eat soooo ( Read more... )

i dont know what to do anymore.. im really convinced that joel is cheating on me.. or has within the past week ...last night.. blah.. i dont know.. maybe im fucking crazy.. but i think im right.. fuck it..

geez, all i want is a fucking boyfriend that dont lie, cheat, & is all about me & only me. i dont understand, what is so bad about me that i cant have a boyfriend that loves me & dont want to fuck around w/ other girls :( its like a 24/7 heart break... will the games ever stop :(