i offically love Wes for these reasons

• he shows up at my house with his friends to take me to newark and play pool
• he lets me win at pool even though i tell him not to
• hes not afraid to hold my hand in front of his friends
• he'll take me over my best friends house even though she lives out of the way
• he insists i'm the prettiest girl i've ever seen ( Read more... )

i've been in rockford since thursday night. i was really going to kill myself, but then something changed my mind and all of a sudden my life didn't seem so bad. i had a note written and everything. it took me all day of school thursday to write it. but now i'm safe at home and i've realized i've got too fucking much to live for and i was stupid ( Read more... )

friday.. i've decided.

theres no turning back now..

( concord + camera= a good effing time!! hey ash jones just don't click this it'll take the dinosaur all damn day )

i found this poem some where on the internet.. i like it because it shows how time changes everything ( Read more... )

i finally got my camera to work and i know some of u guys haven't seen my new hair. and all of you haven't seen the new car my fam got that is most likely mine in november. so here we go.

( pics )

i honestly don't think i can handle this anymore. i hate myself. i want to die. i've been seriously thinking about it for a week so i've started saying good byes to people i don't see as often as i would like. brianna just left, she just wanted my pot but yeah i don't really know what to do... i want to make the hurt go away, but i don't want to ( Read more... )

shit my brother got kicked out of college... what the fuck am i going to do ( Read more... )

yesterday i went to school for 3 classes and then left. i only really wanted to go to school so i could go to gym and see christina, dan, collin, ty, and nicole. after b period i went to the nurse and said i was sick. although i really did have a bad head ache and my stromache hurt. Bill picked me up around 11 and then i bought him lunch cuz i'm ( Read more... )

ever since my brother came home everything has been going down hill. this sucks. i haven't really "been good" so ya know what, what ever i don't care anymore.. on the plus side i got my license yesterday. almost free!!!